Lucky to be alive

[broken halo]

I'm sitting here reflecting on the state I was in this time last week. Just to give you a bit of background, I am 5'1 and weigh just over 100lbs. Last Thursday I drank a full bottle of vodka. The day before, the same. The day after, the same. Don't ask me why, there is no logic to alcoholism. I could have died from AL poisoning, fallen down the stairs and broken my neck, choked on my own vomit, set the house on fire, or just simply had a heart attack.

Then there were the withdrawals. Horrendous. I really felt I was in danger.

In short, I am lucky to be here. Lucky to be alive. I might not be that lucky next time, so I have to make sure there isn't a next time. Other people have died from this horrible disease, there's no reason why it can't happen to me, to any of us. I have been sober for 5 days now. I will not drink today.

[sweetpea29]

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Good work on your 5 days and not drinking today BH :goodjob:

Keep it up xx

[I'm Strong and in Control]

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broken halo;1569932 wrote: I'm sitting here reflecting on the state I was in this time last week. Just to give you a bit of background, I am 5'1 and weigh just over 100lbs. Last Thursday I drank a full bottle of vodka. The day before, the same. The day after, the same. Don't ask me why, there is no logic to alcoholism. I could have died from AL poisoning, fallen down the stairs and broken my neck, choked on my own vomit, set the house on fire, or just simply had a heart attack.

Then there were the withdrawals. Horrendous. I really felt I was in danger.

In short, I am lucky to be here. Lucky to be alive. I might not be that lucky next time, so I have to make sure there isn't a next time. Other people have died from this horrible disease, there's no reason why it can't happen to me, to any of us. I have been sober for 5 days now. I will not drink today.

BH - it truly is a miracle that many of us are still here. I worked up the courage to watch the documentary "Rain in my Heart" to remind myself how close I came - how close I AM to dying from this disease. When I hear the expression "they lost their long battle with alcoholism", I always assumed it was a long-drawn out process of illness and decline (which I guess it is, essentially) and didn't realize it can mean passing out and not waking up, or any of the other fine alternatives you listed.

Thank you for 'being lucky' with me. I hope fear remains a motivator for us both.

[I'm Strong and in Control]

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On a brighter note, I realize I'm "GETTING LUCKY" today by not drinking! Nice catchphrase.

[mlisa]

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There is no logic, no reason why we do this to ourselves. I don't think anyone really understands unless they are in the grip of it, even then it's often hard to see. My other half has said to me "Just drink less", he really doesn't see what the problem is. He can have 1 glass & leave it at that. I can't & never will be able to do that. We just don't have that stop switch.

[gambler]

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Well you certainly gave me the early morning wake up rush Halo :goodjob:

I mean hell I thought you got into a close call last night of some kind ! Phew glad that over with..heart slowing down..

Im so sorry you put yourself through all that crap but at least its behind you now. I agree that at least were sober today..the Only day that matters.

GD.

[paulywogg]

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BH,i feel im lucky to be alive also im pretty small too,and tonput away 30 beers one day and still be here is some sort of miracle,im glad its over

[broken halo]

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Thanks sweetpea

Thank you for 'being lucky' with me. I hope fear remains a motivator for us both. Strong, let's make our own luck! Fear has it's place, but so do joy and hope :l

He can have 1 glass & leave it at that. I can't & never will be able to do that. We just don't have that stop switch.
I envy him lisa, but since we don't have the off switch, we just better not lift that first glass and flick the 'on' switch!
Well you certainly gave me the early morning wake up rush Halo

I mean hell I thought you got into a close call last night of some kind ! Phew glad that over with..heart slowing down..

sorry GD, didn't mean to scare anyone...enjoy your cornflakes! Seriously, today is the only day that matters, and I for one ain't touching AL.

BH,i feel im lucky to be alive also im pretty small too,and tonput away 30 beers one day and still be here is some sort of miracle,im glad its over

It's a miracle we survived, let's not chance it again pauly!

[sanchez]

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BH - you are so right - the number of close calls we've all probably had due to excessive drinking is scary to say the least. So happy you're 5 days sober - keep it going - you can do this.:goodjob:

[K9Lover]

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We are all lucky to be alive today. I know I've had some close calls, and probably some that I wasn't even aware of! Very scary to think about. The "Rain In My Heart" documentaries always get me, no matter how many times I watch them. We always seem to think that "it won't happen to me"...but yeah, it will if we keep drinking!

Way to go BH...stay strong...you got this!

[mama bear]

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wow....that tilte got my attention
You ARE lucky to be alive and we are lucky to have you here to remind us how insidious this disease is

[paulywogg]

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Another good wake-up documentary recommended by k9 a few months ago is drugged:high on alcohol on youtube,very sad

[paulywogg]

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*drugged,high on alchohol dumb phone!

[K9Lover]

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Pauly - That documentary really shocked me. Here it is for anyone that missed it:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_dJ97Vwoup4&hd=1[/video]]Drugged - High On Alcohol - YouTube

[broken halo]

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Slowly or suddenly, AL is a filthy murdering B*stard. He's not taking my precious life! Thanks for the link K9, I remember seeing that. Shocking.