A BIG HI TO EVERYONE,
Almost 2 days ago I FINALLY put my hand up and said "I think that I have a drinking problem and I don't like it anymore", my husband almost jumped for joy.
I grew up with both Mum & Dad being alcoholics, that was all I knew. Dad would down about 12 beers every night and be in bed by 7pm, whilst Mum sat up and drank herself mad on cask wine. Many nights she would abuse us kids telling us how bad we were, calling us all names under the sun, she would come screaming into our bedrooms whilst we were trying to sleep with more abuse. I will never forget the constant pain in my heart especially the next morning when tension was high thinking that my mother hated me (of course she is still drinking and would not and still won't acknowledge what she has done), how could she not see what she was doing when her 12 year old daughter tells her that she needs to go to AA, how did I even know about AA.
Well I will be 40 this year and I was on the same track, that is what made me find this site and decide (for my 2 young girls, my husband and especially for ME) that I will not end up like my mother, I hate her for it.
It was just a way of life for me that was all I knew when growing up, then went to work in the liquor industry and was basically miss party girl, oh I could keep up with the boys and sometimes drink more than them, year after year after year. I have done all of the things that we are not proud of.....but use to laugh them off, I've hidden, felt guilt, have shame, had blackouts (too many to count).
I WILL NOT DO IT TO MY GIRLS, so today is day 2
I have read lots and lots of posts and are just so thankful that I found this site.
Looking forward to getting to know everyone.
went to say Cheers,
but will change to chat soon
sickofit
Almost 2 days ago I FINALLY put my hand up and said "I think that I have a drinking problem and I don't like it anymore", my husband almost jumped for joy.
I grew up with both Mum & Dad being alcoholics, that was all I knew. Dad would down about 12 beers every night and be in bed by 7pm, whilst Mum sat up and drank herself mad on cask wine. Many nights she would abuse us kids telling us how bad we were, calling us all names under the sun, she would come screaming into our bedrooms whilst we were trying to sleep with more abuse. I will never forget the constant pain in my heart especially the next morning when tension was high thinking that my mother hated me (of course she is still drinking and would not and still won't acknowledge what she has done), how could she not see what she was doing when her 12 year old daughter tells her that she needs to go to AA, how did I even know about AA.
Well I will be 40 this year and I was on the same track, that is what made me find this site and decide (for my 2 young girls, my husband and especially for ME) that I will not end up like my mother, I hate her for it.
It was just a way of life for me that was all I knew when growing up, then went to work in the liquor industry and was basically miss party girl, oh I could keep up with the boys and sometimes drink more than them, year after year after year. I have done all of the things that we are not proud of.....but use to laugh them off, I've hidden, felt guilt, have shame, had blackouts (too many to count).
I WILL NOT DO IT TO MY GIRLS, so today is day 2
I have read lots and lots of posts and are just so thankful that I found this site.
Looking forward to getting to know everyone.
went to say Cheers,
but will change to chat soon
sickofit
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