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[13sept]

Hello
I've been absent for a couple of weeks and haven't had any luck with af nor with moderation

Works for a couple of days and then it's back to where I left off

I know I need to get a handle on this but don't seem to be able .....I know I'm going to head into a full blown blackout and not have any idea what went on ........I need to stop but can't
Everyone drinks around me and I say no but come 5-6 o'clock I cave in and keep going

Sorry but don't know what else ......counciling ...they say if I can stop for 3 days there not interested.......

I have to put some positive thoughts and will power in my head

[broken halo]

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13sept;1571398 wrote: Hello
I've been absent for a couple of weeks and haven't had any luck with af nor with moderation

Works for a couple of days and then it's back to where I left off

I know I need to get a handle on this but don't seem to be able .....I know I'm going to head into a full blown blackout and not have any idea what went on ........I need to stop but can't
Everyone drinks around me and I say no but come 5-6 o'clock I cave in and keep going

Sorry but don't know what else ......counciling ...they say if I can stop for 3 days there not interested.......

I have to put some positive thoughts and will power in my head

This is probably the most honest post I have read in a long time, including my own. I want to help you, but I don't feel qualified. I wish I did.

[MossRose]

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13Sept, it's good to see you back. Sorry you are having a tough time. It's just so hard, I know. But we are here for you. Wish I had better advice. But I hope knowing that you have friends who care helps at least a bit. xx

[Luckyflower]

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I am very new to AF and cannot tell you how easier it get's because I did not experience it myself but I know that triggers are very important to be recognized and dealt with. I think it is important to stay away from the triggers even if it means not spending as much time or at all with those around you who are drinking. I did not go out this weekend cause I knew I would drink. The temptation is too strong. Also decided to walk a new route from the bus stop since "to my luck" the liquor store is right there for me when I get off the bus. Anyway, what I am trying to say is : it's hard, truly hard but living a drunken life like I did is HARDER. I keep telling it to myself. I have to believe that I can can live my life without this poison. I think we all deserve happier lives and we all know that alcohol makes us feel exactly the opposite. Hope this helps.

[anonymousllama]

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Seeing your post reminded me so much of me. By day 4 I lose it and start all over again. I know what you mean about the people around you too. If they aren't supportive it makes it impossible to be around them. I'm here this morning starting my day 1 and i hope to make it passed that rotten day 4. Moderation just isn't for me. Good luck and keep your head up.

[13sept]

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Thank you all
I will give it another go day 1 here I come

[Starfish1]

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Hi 13Sept.
That happens to ALL of us...we have strong commitment first thing in the morning and by the afternoon, our resolve totally vanishes. I looked back through some of your older posts and see that you have been advised to check out the toolbox and to come up with a plan. Have you written your plan for the day yet? I think that's the best place to begin. Make a foolproof plan, anticipating your triggers and itemizing how you can overcome each one. You can do it, 13Sept. You just have to make it top priority

[Rahulthesweet]

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13 the sep welcome back. I am in a similar situation I was sober for good several weeks but started drinking and bam ... One one on and was where I started. I just completed my first day AF free and I will be with you on this journey.

Gather strength dont look into past or dwell in future.
Just stay focused on present and continue.