Hi everyone. I'm here because I have a hangover this morning. Despite many failed attempts to abstain from alcohol (including a 2 year successful stretch in 2007-2009) I am now 5 years down the line since I thought I had quit.
I can't go into too much detail yet. But i've half made the decision to give this up once again. I say only half, because I know in my heart I must. But my head is playing its usual tricks on me (what go through the rest of my life without being allowed to have a glass of wine with fish is one such mind game). I say I must, because every time I drink now my liver hurts. I know at 42 that if I don't stop drinking I will go the same way as a colleague (an old drinking partner) who died 2 months ago aged 52. Chronic liver disease.
I have drunk since the age of 17. Really, fairly heavily (but not rampantly). But certainly in excess of 50-60 units a week and at some points in my life even heavier than that. I think nothing of drinking 8 cans of lager of a friday night, and often more than 4 on a weekday. Certainly as much as a bottle of wine in one night, or as much as 4 pints of lager. On an easy night. I am regularly drunk. But I function.
And yes. I am a veteran of running 4 London marathons. How can I be a marathon runner, but also an alcoholic? Can someone explain that for me? I have been writing a journal on and off since I went 60 days without alcohol at the beginning of last year. I will post excerpts here. Please help me give this up. It is causing enormous pressure on me, my marriage. I have three beautiful children and so much to live for.:new:
I can't go into too much detail yet. But i've half made the decision to give this up once again. I say only half, because I know in my heart I must. But my head is playing its usual tricks on me (what go through the rest of my life without being allowed to have a glass of wine with fish is one such mind game). I say I must, because every time I drink now my liver hurts. I know at 42 that if I don't stop drinking I will go the same way as a colleague (an old drinking partner) who died 2 months ago aged 52. Chronic liver disease.
I have drunk since the age of 17. Really, fairly heavily (but not rampantly). But certainly in excess of 50-60 units a week and at some points in my life even heavier than that. I think nothing of drinking 8 cans of lager of a friday night, and often more than 4 on a weekday. Certainly as much as a bottle of wine in one night, or as much as 4 pints of lager. On an easy night. I am regularly drunk. But I function.
And yes. I am a veteran of running 4 London marathons. How can I be a marathon runner, but also an alcoholic? Can someone explain that for me? I have been writing a journal on and off since I went 60 days without alcohol at the beginning of last year. I will post excerpts here. Please help me give this up. It is causing enormous pressure on me, my marriage. I have three beautiful children and so much to live for.:new:
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