I'm in big trouble.

[sanchez]

I'm in big trouble.

MR-just hopped into the nest and saw this thread. Go easy on yourself now, get some rest and think about all you have learned and gained over the last five months. As the others said all is not lost. This is a long long journey. And you stopped and poured out a half a bottle of wine. That's a really good sign. Please get some sleep and let us hear from you in the a.m.
Hugs!

[NoSugar]

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Hi, MossRose

You don't have to earn the right to post here. You are enough, just as you are (like BBrown talks about in those videos we've watched). No one in the world is perfect - and certainly no one here.

It seems like you had some emotional experiences this week. Could that have unsettled you?

I hope you are sleeping well right now. See you tomorrow! :h NS

[gettinitright]

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MR...love you girl!!! Sent you my number. You call me any time. We are gonna DO THIS THANG!!! BUMP...over and done.

[NoraC]

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Just saw this. I'm jumping in with everyone else. Take care of yourself today & jump right back here when you wake up. :h We are here to offer support.

[DreamThinkDo]

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Moss, are you feeling better today? Lots of hugs.

[MossRose]

I'm in big trouble.

I can't sleep. I am so angry at myself. I re-read my posts and remember why I can't drink. It only takes a few for me to become totally maudlin and self-loathing. SueSue, yes, I did have a relapse in August. Forgive me, I was drinking tonight, so wasn't making any sense. In fact, today was almost an exact repeat of my fall in Aug - a few glasses of wine and several emotional posts. Thankfully, both times I was able to pour the rest down the drain because of the support I got here. So here I am, back at Day One. Yep - DJR will have a field day with this one, and he would be right.

But one thing I have learned on MWO is to look at my sober time as the real deal now, and the times I have fallen down as aberrant behavior. I'm not giving up. And no excuses. It was a stupid decision that I deeply regret.

Now for the really sappy and truthful part - I love you all so much. Thank you. I couldn't do this without you. xx

[Wine-no!]

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Hi MR

I have only just seen your posts. You are stronger than you think - you poured the rest down the sink (don't think I could have done that) and you are back and continuing.

Please don't beat yourself up. Dust yourself off and continue. Your alcohol free time is not lost, simply banked.

Lots of love x

[spiderwoman]

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Don't beat yourself up MR you don't deserve a beating, think of it as what one of my friends used to call an "unfortunate apostrophe in life" it happened, its a bit like a dieter who's lost several stones having a family sized bar of chocolate. That bar of chocolate isn't going to undo all the good, its continuing to eat the chocolate that would put all the weight back on.

You're back on track now - each and every one of us is only one drink away from the slippery slope. If you're visiting this forum you are in no position to criticise another poster so what if you had a lapse in the past, you're on track now and that's the important thing so be proud of your sober time and begin to add to it because no way are you a failure or weak.

Sylv x

[MossRose]

I'm in big trouble.

Thanks wine-no and spidey - it's the middle of the night here. Actually it's past that - it's 3 am and I'm rambling around. Guess I'll watch a little TV now and try to get back to sleep. Your support is so appreciated.

[spiderwoman]

I'm in big trouble.

Try and get plenty of rest, I found that helped a lot, you're on the right road or you'd have carried on. Give yourself a treat tomorrow (today) because you deserve one for not carrying on to oblivion.

Sleep well x

[Suesue]

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Just put this behind you and keep going. Try identify your triggers and avoid them. Avoid the supermarket if you're feeling vulnerable cos that's where you got the wine. Go to a different supermarket to shop. If you're feeling sad a lot lately maybe yiu need to go talk to somebody about it. Don't let a couple of times undo all the effort you made all the days you didn't drink still count. Try to learn from your mistakes and avoid putting yourself through this again. You know it's not worth it. You can do it. Don't be hard on yourself but don't let alcohol back in your life you know you don't even want it deep down cos it makes you feel bad.

[lifechange]

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Hey Moss, adding my support and love-- I'm glad you came right here and followed the very sound advice. Like NS asked, is it possible to figure out what led to the decision to drink? You probably know-- and that could be very helpful for the future.:l Be kind to yourself today--

[3June2013]

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Moss sorry I wasn't here earlier but it looks like you had a good group helping you through. I hope you finally got some rest and you wake up knowing you got through it almost unscathed! You poured the other half bottle down the drain, how smart is that? I know it could have turned into a much longer ordeal but you came here, you opened up and you got back on track! Pat yourself on the back, that took guts! Congratulations!

[free at last]

I'm in big trouble.

Hi MossRose,
just now seeing your post. You were strong to pour the poison down the drain. Agree with Lifechange, be kind to yourself today -- compassion toward ourselves in this process is vital to success. Nothing can take away the progress you have made in removing AF your life. Learn from yesterday and move on. We are all pulling for your success.

[little beagle]

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I love that chocolate thing spiderwoman. I am struggling with that issue right now. Ugh. Mossy, I am glad to see you are feeling better. I know it will be a few days before you are 100% but I am so proud of you for dumping that wine.
We love you and this place would not be the same without you.