Ok this is going to sound long winded. I have to get drinking in control as one way and another it has ruined my life.
The story so far... I'm a mother of 2 teens. My husband died 3 years ago of cancer. I was a heavy but not uncontrolled drinker. I met a man and fell in love. He was a daytime couple of V&T's (but very large) drinker then lots of wine. All was going well but at weekends I started drinking in the day when I was with him. The relationship had some bumps, I had an accident and was signed off work(not alcohol related). I started on the wine as soon as the kids went to school and reached 3 bottles of wine a day within 2 months. We went on holiday and the boyfriend was on 2 double rums in his hot chocolate at 10.30 am. 2 bottles of wine at lunch. He started getting controlling and in response I drank. Unlike him who would just go to bed leaving me to look after the kids in the afternoon I would be OK and then crash and get pissed in the evening. We rowed, he blamed my drinking, my response was stupid and I just got more stressed. Eventually I got done for drink driving (ironically my drink was spiked, I'd only had one small wine but it was at a meeting with his ex and the CCTV shows she put a double vod in my drink). I've lost my job, the relationship has ended (thank god except for not seeing his kids anymore). I'm at risk of losing my house. So...it is my fault I foolishly got myself with an idiot and reacted badly to it. I tried tapering but couldn't get off the wine. I like wine. So progress so far - Sunday 3 bottles of wine, Monday 1 bottle of wine and 5 beers, Tuesday 1 bottle of wine and 3 beers. Aim for today 1/2 bottle of wine and 3 beers. Aiming to get to glass of wine a day with 3 AF days a week. I never got withdrawal until I read about it, now have panic attacks thinking about it. I think I've talked myself into withdrawal symptoms.
The story so far... I'm a mother of 2 teens. My husband died 3 years ago of cancer. I was a heavy but not uncontrolled drinker. I met a man and fell in love. He was a daytime couple of V&T's (but very large) drinker then lots of wine. All was going well but at weekends I started drinking in the day when I was with him. The relationship had some bumps, I had an accident and was signed off work(not alcohol related). I started on the wine as soon as the kids went to school and reached 3 bottles of wine a day within 2 months. We went on holiday and the boyfriend was on 2 double rums in his hot chocolate at 10.30 am. 2 bottles of wine at lunch. He started getting controlling and in response I drank. Unlike him who would just go to bed leaving me to look after the kids in the afternoon I would be OK and then crash and get pissed in the evening. We rowed, he blamed my drinking, my response was stupid and I just got more stressed. Eventually I got done for drink driving (ironically my drink was spiked, I'd only had one small wine but it was at a meeting with his ex and the CCTV shows she put a double vod in my drink). I've lost my job, the relationship has ended (thank god except for not seeing his kids anymore). I'm at risk of losing my house. So...it is my fault I foolishly got myself with an idiot and reacted badly to it. I tried tapering but couldn't get off the wine. I like wine. So progress so far - Sunday 3 bottles of wine, Monday 1 bottle of wine and 5 beers, Tuesday 1 bottle of wine and 3 beers. Aim for today 1/2 bottle of wine and 3 beers. Aiming to get to glass of wine a day with 3 AF days a week. I never got withdrawal until I read about it, now have panic attacks thinking about it. I think I've talked myself into withdrawal symptoms.
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