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[Yucon]

Hello all.

I have been lurking about for a few days and I am amazed and thankful at all the support and help that is available here at MWO. I truly look forward to getting to know everybody in time.

Please bare with me. This is all new to me. I am sure I may mess up on some of the forums ediquite.

I am a 47 year old male who is married and has two boys. I have been drinking, well all my life. I guess I passed the line about 10 years ago when I could not go a night without drinking myself to sleep. I would start with a half pint of Yucon Jack as my primer and follow it up with many beers. I hid the Hard stuff from my wife. I finally told her I had a problem about a week ago and that I that had all ready scheduled treatment. At this point she is being very supportive. My fear is that she divorced her first husband for the same reason.

I have been AF for three days now. I am going through the detox faze. I was given Librium to use through this part from my doctor. I am using aproah similar to AA through the Kaiser foundation in California. i would be interested to know if anybody has completed this program. Please don't hold that against me as I am very interestd in the MWO program and can see the great beneifits in it. I won't mind the AA type meetings and such. I have, on my own, called all friends and family members to explain my situation

I actually have felt pretty good these past three days and really have not had to rely on the meds other that last night for sleep. Even at that, I only took half the dose. I am not sure what the next few days hold in store, but I will let you know. I understand they will be perscribing the one of th 4 or five craving medications talked about on MWO.

I would love to be able to moderately drink and be able to control it. I think at this point it is best that I stay AF. Maybe in the future???

I look forward from hearing from each and every one of you.

:new: :thanks:

[Accountable for Me]

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Welcome Yucon! Good job on your 3 days. Detoxing isn't fun to say the least, but you are well on your way! Just know you and your family are worth it. Good for you for taking the first step. I hope you find the support you need here.

[juney]

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hi Yukon

Welcome to this place. I only found it 5 days ago and i have gained the help and support from the lovely people here to stay AF for 5 days now. I find the Kudzu has helped me with the cravings plus i have been taking Ginseng to give me that little bit of a lift. I too hid bottles and thought no one knew but they did as they found about 12 wine bottles hidden in my wardrobe. I got sick of passing out and not being able to remember things. Usually Saturdays and Sundays i was in bed between 5 and 7pm unconscious and not knowing how i got there or what i did beforehand. Its so good to be AF today and im taking it one step at a time and just living for the day. It will be my first AF weekend for god knows how long and im looking forward to remembering it. Stick in there! You have the support of some great people on this site xx

[Riker]

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Welcome Yukon,

I know it's hard to make that first step and I, like yourself, just joined here about 4 hours ago so I know exactly how you feel. I am convinced that we will both find amazing support and strenght in this forum to go along with the meds, hypnotherapy, supplements, exercise and / or whatever else that we do outside of the forum.

Again, welcome :welcome:

Riker

[morrison]

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Hello Yukon. Welcome. I want AF myself. No sense in me trying to mod. I've failed too many times. I know it's never going to happen. You will find a lot of people on here that are doing AF, and it is a great means of extra support to the support you already have. Just don't be afraid of AF like you can't do it or live without alcohol. One thing I got from this site, is that so many people go AF all the time, and there lives are more full, not less full. I'm glad you found us. :welcome:

[Yucon]

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Newbie

Thanks you for the kind words of encouragement. I have ead many posts and it feels great not to be alone. In each post that I have read i can say "Yup" I did that. Hiding liquor. Thinking as a functioning drinker I was doing a fine job. Never went to bed past 9Pm. Waking up feeling like crap. Waking up wondering what i said last night.

i became a hermit of sourts in my home after 9PM. I did not want to go out and do any family functions because that would take me away from by drink. I was not a whole lot of fun for my wife or kids when they did stay home.

In the last two nights I have done more with my family than I can remember doing at night in quite a long time.

[AAthlete]

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Yucon, welcome to MWO!

Yep, been there done that in terms of drinking and trying to hide it. Sounds like you are attacking this head on and are ready for a change - good for you.

I have what I think is the best of both worlds, in that I visit the MWO site daily but also have a wonderfully supportive AA group as well. Between the two of them I feel a calm and serenity that I have not known in a long, long time.

I wish you nothing but the best in your journey!

[Determinator]

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congrads to you Yukon for taking all these steps to better yourself...you will find your evenings being even more productive and enjoyable as time goes on. Whatever your plan ends up being, if you ask we'll do our darndest to help. I attend an outpatient therapy class once a week (that's all that's available in that program) listen to the MWO hypno, exercise again, really taking my vitamin/mineral/supplements seriuosly and have been keeping a journal. this shotgun approach seems to work for me at this time.
take care,

[SKendall]

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Welcome. You will find a lot of support on this forum. If you haven't read the book, I suggest you do and follow the suggested course of supplements, etc. that RJ has laid out for us and what has made so many success stories on this site

[lushy]

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Welcome Yucon! You sound like you are so ready for this change and we are here to help you on that journey. This is a good place full of great people!!!

[Breez]

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Hi Yukon ~ WELCOME!

Good luck with the next couple of days. Quite honestly a few folks here started AF & then decided to stick with it. For me-I tried to convince myself for 4 years (unsuccessfully) that I could moderate. Maybe at first but eventually after a few months I was back to my old habits. Then it took me another 4 yrs to be where I now~living AF & loving every minute of it. Now I just wake up every day & choose to be AF that day. No need to worry about tomorrow-just today. Baby steps.

Wishing you success....glad you found us!

[Mags]

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Hey Yucon,
So good to meet you. You have two boys? I have two boys too - although mine are pretty grown up by now - 18 and 21. You have no idea what it was like to live in a house for years with three male humans (including my husband) and even three male cats!! I know a lot (too much) about males. How old are your boys?
We all love our children more than anything else in the world. My boys used to hate me because I drank too much. Now they respect me and are proud of me because I have finally been able to be honest with them. They know I am overcoming this terrible addiction and are proud of me for it - instead of being ashamed of me as they were (though they won't admit it) in the past.
You should be successful on this difficult journey for yourself - but even if not for yourself then for your wife who seems to be giving you lots of loving support, and for your kids who need a father to look up to.
This is wonderful because you have lots of friends here who will always pull you up and help you to go through this tough time.
Hang in there. We are all there with you. :welcome:

[Beaches]

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Welcome Yucon,
Glad you are here and you have found such a great support network. Stick around!

[hereatlast]

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welcome yucon
yes weve all been there the cant remember what we said last night the dreaded phone calls till i came to this site i thought i was the only one who made phone calls and couldnt remember them. moderation i dont think will be an option for me though i pretend it will be
but it was so hard to get af ive only been 23 days but that is so good for me and i would hate to go back to the alcohol fuelled me good luck with your journey.

[Sunny AZ]

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Hi Yucon...welcome! I'm new here too (and have 2 boys too!). Great site, great program, GREAT people! Good luck to you, sounds like you have everything lined up. Until I stumbled onto this site I felt so alone at the bottom of my beautiful, seductive, destructive, mind numbing bottle. Now I find the 'symptoms' of my addiction are a common thread to so many of us here: hiding the amount we drink, forgeting, protecting the cocktail hour, lying, promise breaking, morning fog...on and on and on.

Now when I slip and fall, I get up move the ball forward, then slip and fall, move forward...I don't give up and settle back in now that I've found MWO.

So glad you're here.

Stay strong

sunny