I'm 37, a stay-at-home mom w/two boys (ages 3 and 6), happily married. Since the birth of my 2nd, the stress of raising 2 very active boys got the better of me. My old friend--a glass of wine--has over 3 years grown uncontrollably into a bottle & a half of wine every night. No one knows about my habit. I bury empty wine bottles in the bottom of the trash can and do all sorts of things to hide it. I never get good quality sleep. I'm tired & unproductive all day. Even the most mundane of tasks, going to the grocery store, seem like climbing a mountain.
I've always enjoyed a drink, but now I'm obviously an alcoholic. I have to quit. I worry what toll my drinking has taken on my brain, my liver, my esophogas... It's been 3 yrs of heavy drinking. I feel like a shadow of the person I used to be. I was happy, energetic, worked as an attorney. Then I got married, quit work, and the incessant crying of my second child (who's perfectly healthy but very cranky) really helped push me over the edge.
Several times I've quit, but it never lasted for more than 3 days. I do not get "withdrawal" symptoms--other than desperately wanting a drink. And I end up convincing myself that I don't really have a "problem".
I must stop. I want to do it privately, but I know I still need resources to help me. The forums on this website are incredibly supportive. Just came across this website an hour ago. I will be reading/participating in the forums here daily for support. I am scared, however, to go ahead with the whole MWO regimen b/c I don't want to take pills. Does this kudzu stuff really work in reducing cravings? Are there side effects?
In any case, thank you to whomever takes the time to read this.
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