Newbies in need May day 6

[aduggan]

Good morning everyone! Welcome to May day 6. Hope you are all doing OK, I know it's a bank holiday weekend in many parts of the world and the temptation to slip is everywhere. If you managed not to, well a great big pat on the back - well done! If you did slip, get right back on track and start again, and come back on this thread so we can give you a big, cuddle and help you along the way. Have a great holiday and stay positive!!

[aduggan]

Newbies in need May day 6

Personally, I made it past day 10. Never done that before, it is the first time I have ever made it past two weekends without drinking. So suppose I am a little proud of me little self.

[juney]

Newbies in need May day 6

Hi everyone
And its such a wonderful day even though its raining but at least i havent had a drink or felt the urge to. Still early days i know but im Day 7 now and feeling proud! Going to get stuck into some heavy chores today as Sunday is usually my big big downfall day and has been for some time. Last Sunday was horrendous and i did some really silly dangerous things but im still here and i love this site and all the people here.

Have a wonderful day everyone

[Guest]

Newbies in need May day 6

Strength in numbers/MWO allies.

Going for Day 1 again guys. Pray for me to stay strong. I DON`T WANT TO DRINK TONIGHT!!!!!

Thanks for reading,

Starlight Impress

[juney]

Newbies in need May day 6

Good Luck Starlight and be thinking of you. xx

[Sante]

Newbies in need May day 6

I'm going for Day One, again, myself. I'm trying not to be too hard on myself. At least I'm trying and in the last four days, two were AF. I haven't had an AF day, I'm sure, since last August. I really don't know how everyone does it. Someone on these boards once told me you just have to want it really badly and to have reached a point where your mind/body/spirit are totally committed. I hope (pray) today I'm at that point. Happy Sunday to you all....

[aduggan]

Newbies in need May day 6

For me the turning point was when my hubbie told me he was disgusted with me and that I had turned into a fat, drunk, slob! I was so upset but realised he was right. I have put on 5 stone since we got married 13 years ago and my drinking had got so far out of control. I can't just drink one or two and then stop, I had to carry on. Everyone else at the dinner party would be on coffees and I would carry on with the wine and then when they had all gone home I would often open another bottle. I found MWO ordered EVERYTHING I could, CD's, supplements, topa (on line - didnt want to go to my doctor - live in France so language barrier a problem) and then I told both my daughter and my husband. Once I had done that I had admitted to them and myself and there was no going back, they are watching me like a hawk (however, it's not necessary as I am committed myself) I do intend to try to moderate after the first 30 days. I think for me it was down to committing to myself first and then to my family afterwards. Good luck everyone!

[Otie]

Newbies in need May day 6

It's my day 1 and I'm newbie here on MWO, too. I had 16 AF days in March/early April and then slipped while at business trip in NY. I knew I had to get back on track, but the usual thing - a slip and it's a long slide down. Since then I managed to control and had a few sober days, went to AA, too. Work's been really tough lately and I was sent back to NY last week - this time for a month. And I decided that I'll have few drinks on the plane and then stop when I get here. Well, yeah, sure. Been drinking in the evening like a sponge and yesterday. But now, it has to stop, I am not functioning well enough to do my job even if I drink in the evenings, because I drink too much and don't sleep well. My head is a real mess and my body is really worn out. And I need to get loads of work done today, too.

:upset:

[retteacher]

Newbies in need May day 6

aduggan: Many thanks for this thread. I think your accomplishment is wonderful. Good for you if you think you can mod after 30 days. I know I can't. I have 2 AF in a row now & feel great.

[Sante]

Newbies in need May day 6

Otie, I know what it's like to have a stressful job, work on weekends, and have to travel abroad. I don't do it now, but I did for seven years and it was tough. You're lucky you've found this site and I would guess it would be a real comfort to you.

Aduggan, I think you are right about telling some people about wanting to be AF. My husband knows this, but he also knows I waver. Right now, he is on a business trip, but will be coming home tonight. It is always better in some ways when he is around. It's being alone that is my downfall. It's strange, but sometimes I find ways to be alone...just so I can drink without inhibitions. This is all so convoluted and difficult. I just have to remember I'm addicted to this stuff and I just have to get off of it totally...at least for today.

[retteacher]

Newbies in need May day 6

Sante: I too have serious problems when I am alone. My husband is retired, so he's here a lot. But I still seem to find my opportunities to drink. I'm just going to try to fight the urges.

[Sante]

Newbies in need May day 6

Retteacher, I hope to be retired by the end of the year, too. But I'm scared by this prospect, because if I'm retired and at home alone a lot...I'll just drink. I HAVE to get a handle on this NOW. I said this when I turned 55 and now I'm 56...so you can see I've been struggling with this for some time.

I know what you mean about not being alone and still finding ways to drink. I do that, too, when my husband is at home on the weekends. But today, I'm going to try really hard to stay AF. It's still very early in the morning here, but so far my head is in the right place....

[bird]

Newbies in need May day 6

Hi all,
Back to square 1 for me also. I get an easy day out today with no alchohol sold on Sunday here.I had a terrible hangover in the middle of the night.I'm glad I'm alive.Hangovers must kill some people.Told my kids I'd take them to amusment park today and I'm so tired.More later.Bird

[aduggan]

Newbies in need May day 6

I am living in France, the country where wine is on tap and it is so hard. The French just seem to drink all the time. Also, because we are retired (although we are just starting a b and b) it has been too easy to drink as you dont have to get up early in the morning. I am going to try and moderate after the 30 days, but not sure whether I will be able to, if I find myself slipping I will have to admit that I can't and go AF for good. Retteacher, bird and Sante, good luck in going AF today. I don't know if it helps for you guys, but when I have had it bad (and I know it's only 11 days , dont want to sound like I am preaching, just trying to see if I can help) I tell myself that if I don't have a drink today I can have one tomorrow if I want one. Then I do the same the next day. A couple of times I have nearly poured a glass of wine and I have asked myself 3 times do I REALLY want it. Had a glass of juice or something first, gone for a walk and came back twenty minutes later and I didnt. Just what helps for me. Maybe worth a try. Amanda

[PeggySue]

Newbies in need May day 6

Hi Newbies,
I started this program a little over a month ago. I've been a heavy wine drinker for 30+ years. Thought it was okay since it was just "wine" :-) Like aduggan, I was always opening another bottle! Well I found this website, ordered everything and boy did the lightbulb go off, and I've tried everything else in past years. Believe it or not, right away with the supps and topa and cd's I was AF for four whole weeks!!

I was more than proud!!!! And I felt better than I have felt in years, emotionally, physically , everything!! I didn't even let the topa dopa thing bother me. I admit it (the topa) makes me really tired, but I didn't care. I did not crave my wine!
(I have to confess I don't exercise, but I'm doing 99% of the program).

But... like many of you, my career has me to travel. When I started the program, I stayed home (worked from home) for a while and it was "safe". Last week, I traveled. Went out with clients, and of course went to dinner. Waiter came around, and everyone had drinks... I wanted to say water but my mouth had to say "glass of pino grigio". Okay, moderation, right?? Then had one more glass, although my brain and conscience told me I was going against everything that had been making me feel so good about myself for the last month.

As the group drank on (they did not get drunk...they just drank what I call nomal)... I then had coffee. So I had two glasses of wine and coffee. Moderators would say that is good. For me it was excellent. I would normally have had three glasses, gone back to the room and had several more. I was a little tempted to stop and get some to take to the room, but I went straigt to bed, and was okay.

Problem is ........ now I am having the cravings at five o'clock again. I miss my wine again. But you know what? I did not get a buzz, it was just the fact of having my old friend with me that I liked.

Last night I wanted my wine so bad that I got a wine glass and put cranberry juice in it.
Took some extra kudzu and sipped my juice and went to bed. I am so grateful to wake up this morning hangover free and one day more AF. I know I personally need to stay away from the wine altogether.

This is a great place to be to share. If you can control your drinking, that is so great for you. It just scares me to death. I don't know when I progress from being a newbie to an oldie but I know right now, I am still a newbie, because I really miss my wine.

Happy Sunday to you all. Thank you for letting me ramble on.
Peggy Sue