Newbies in need May day 7

[fire31]

Newbies in need May day 7

Well, I didn't make it through Saturday night. The cravings got the best of me and all my sobriety resolve seemed to fly right out the window. So I was on a binge drunk Sat night and was out of commission all Sunday. So now I'm back starting at the beginning....

And to add insult to injury, i see now that on the drink tracker I've got the record for number of drinks in a day... that's pretty damn embarassing.

Oh well, I'll just try, try again.

[Gardening Gal]

Newbies in need May day 7

This is my 8 AF day and the first time I've have a chance to post. I started all supps and meds on day 1 qnd I kept so busy I didn't even sit long enough to post, I read but didn't post. It hasn't been smooth sailing, I still have my triggers but I've redirected my energy into getting things done that I have been avoiding. For me, staying busy and making plans has made it much easier to achieve being AF.

[GALT]

Newbies in need May day 7

How much Kudzu rescue should I take a day? I'm taking 3 a day, is that enough?

[bluesky]

Newbies in need May day 7

Thank you all ever so much for you kind words of encouragement. I actually made it through my first day and night AF in a long, long, long time. How wonderful it was to waken up this morning without the usual panic attack, feeling rotton, guilty and worthless, wondering how I had even reached my bedroom the night before. Did I call anybody, if so what did I say to them? How wonderful not to have to hide from my husband and kids today because of what I might have said or done while on my usual nightly drunken binge. How wonderful it was to drive to work not feeling still drunk and rotten from the night before. How so very happy and relieved my beautiful children and wonderful husband were last night cause Mum was actually drinking tea and making sense and not running from cupboard to cupboard drinking glass after glass after glass of hidden wine whilst stotting around stating "no I'm not drinking, it's your imagination" How sad to be so dependent on such an evil substance and to see how hurt all our loved ones are by our actions. One day at a time.... good luck to us all. I am so glad I have found you all. Thanks for listening.

Blue XX