Greatest Christmas Present

[Pavati]

Greatest Christmas Present

Hi, DD--

Stay strong. Remember how bad you felt and that will help your resolve to quit the drink once and for all! Hope you're having a restful holiday.

[Darkest Diamond]

Greatest Christmas Present

So today is now day 3, as I had the mini blip after midnight on boxing day, if that had not happened I would now be on day 13.

Feel determined now. Parts of this thread were really negative as I was drinking as I typed and desperate to stop. I was going to delete all that but it is helpful for me to see the rage, the fear, the chaos and the hopelessness that drinking created.

New Year's Eve is approaching, I will be sober for that, I nearly always spend it alone and sober.

I went to AA last night to my weekly meeting, loved it. Am going to up my meetings while I am on holiday from work. Another thing I am doing is spending a lot of time with my family which is helping too, also going for one very long walk each day, for at least 45mins if not an hour!!

Interestingly I never did need the diazepam, all withdrawals are over now, still have big problems sleeping, but it is better than alcohol induced sleep. When I get the courage will have a blood test to test for function of liver etc, have got some digestive disorders but they are improving.

For years and years I have tried to maintain sobriety, now I know it is vital that I do, also I have now had glimpses of how lovely life can be without it

Happy sober day to all xxxx