I Hate you Alcohol !

[wanting serenity]

I Hate you Alcohol !

I am trying to quit as well and feel exactly the same way!! Thank you for this post!!!

[3June2013]

I Hate you Alcohol !

Just added jaklin girl to my ignore list.

[3June2013]

I Hate you Alcohol !

Rahul you can make today day one.

[Rahulthesweet]

I Hate you Alcohol !

I am now a days living in a prison. Trapped with AL...work getting affected, life getting messed up. And I so hate so crib here about it ... I will set myself free one day

[3June2013]

I Hate you Alcohol !

Rahul how about today? Make this the day you change your life. You can do it.

[Rahulthesweet]

I Hate you Alcohol !

Not so great. I dont know whats worse drinking without knowing its so bad for you or knowing drinking ..

I am in seconds stage, read a lot, seen a lot, experienced a lot. First days of soriety were wonderful. In fact I remember those days more than I remember days of drinking. But the power of AL brain it makes me completely forget about it by the evening. By evening only "exciting" things seems like drinkin. Worse I drink alone !

Hopefully will be sober today

[TJAF]

I Hate you Alcohol !

Rahul
In the 5 months Ive posted on MWO Ive seen the same pattern with you. Don't you think its time to try something new. Open up to your family, see a therapist, talk to a doctor, kick a rock....anything but the same ole "I hate AL" rap because Brother it isn't working.

[YouKayBee]

I Hate you Alcohol !

TJAF;1604987 wrote: Rahul
In the 5 months Ive posted on MWO Ive seen the same pattern with you. Don't you think its time to try something new. Open up to your family, see a therapist, talk to a doctor, kick a rock....anything but the same ole "I hate AL" rap because Brother it isn't working.

Rahul you seem to be very stuck at the moment, I'm hoping you can find it within yourself to break out of this.

[Rahulthesweet]

I Hate you Alcohol !

I need to do something ... This beast will drive me mad.

[Mr Vervill]

I Hate you Alcohol !

You are here, you are fighting. Keep it up. Try and change the mindset my friend. You will not be missing out on anything, you will be getting your family back, your life back. You will be a better man for it.

[DreamThinkDo]

I Hate you Alcohol !

Rahul, I remember when I was little one of my brothers teased me - in a nice, fun way - but he literally drove me to tears. My mum kept telling me that if I ignored him, he would grow tired of teasing me and would eventually go and bother somebody else. I could not do so, I just had to respond.

Your situation reminds me of that: AL keeps calling, your respond, tears and recriminations follow, you ignore him for a while, and then the whole dance start over. AL will keep on calling you, but you have to learn to ignore him - you have to work at it. The more you give in to him, the more he sees you as an easy victim and thus the more he calls and taunts you. I know how difficult it is, but if you give in at the merest whiff of temptation, you will never ever kick AL out of your life. I know that I sound harsh and as if I don't care - but it's because I care that I'm saying this. You have to put in real hard effort to get the rewards - but the reward is so worth it.

This is the last day of 2013 - make it an AF one, OK?

[Darkest Diamond]

I Hate you Alcohol !

Rahul, I feel for you, I really do, as all this year, apart from a few days/weeks here and there I was going through the same drinking hell. You know how wonderful sobriety can be as you had that for a long time previously. For me going back to AA has helped me, would you consider trying AA? What else do you think you can do to change your patterns?

[vynan]

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Rahul,

Hang in tight, I can relate to what you are saying and have fallen prey one too many times.
Just remember alcohol is a patient creature, it will wait patiently for you to pick it up again, someday, someway or sometime. It is up to you that day is not today, worry about tomorrow, tomorrow. Stay sober now, half battle is won.

Best,

Vy

[Rahulthesweet]

I Hate you Alcohol !

Dear All,

Thanks for your support and help it means lot. I will defeat this beast. I know it.

[Rahulthesweet]

I Hate you Alcohol !

So here I go ..

It 4 am in morning I could not sleep for past hour or so have been reading toolbox on MWO. Even saw my contribution there. Have been thinking a lot, past 2 days I drank quite less and atleast slept sober but today I could not. I guess I must think why I am doing to myself. Yes its ME not AL. I must stop this sorry me pity attiude towards myself and start taking control over myself. I know now that AL does not offer ANY good. I am more than convinced. Its about time I break from this madness, feel good, proud. Its about time i go and start making friends here and in my life. And should I ... I have family who loves me, ypung kids who depend upon me. Great Business and everything that life can offer. And there is only ONE thing which does not fit :

ALCOHOL

it just does not. I wanted to post this as it helps me to re inforce the thought clearly in my mind. Today for eexample I was out with famiky and a bit high. Did I enjoy ... yes but only AL. And nothing else. Seng my kids playing my wife was wanted to share, it just did t matter to me then. I was just "enjoying" my drink. I cant sink any further. I have responsibilies. I have commitments to so many people and I have just one life. Why to waste on AL.

Friends, i have been a sick past few months. Even my posts have been sicking and depressing. This is a place where ppl come for help support and inspiration. And here I am cribbing about AL when it is me who have to stop it and the cribbing will go away.

Last one hour or so I have been looking at life head on. I am in mid 30s and it is now i must change. It is now I must realize where all this is going.

I will be off to vacation from sunday. Gojng to far east with my family and kids. And I intend to be completely sober. But hey why from sunday. Why not from now ? And as I introspect there is no harm. Infact there is all good. Reasons can be so many:

Will sleep good wake up good
No guilt
Feeling if acomplishment
Time with friends and famiky
more time for wark
more time for life
more time for badminton
more time for movies
more time for computer games (something i miss).
More time for MWO
more time for life ...

I am sorry guys but I just want to pour my brain out here. Why I do what I do every day with absolutely no benefit. But now enough is enough. I must take charge. I will take charge.

See you on the other side....