Hello Everyone,
I'll echo what others have said. I can't commit to the 30 days (yet) because of the fear of failure. I'm looking at this process as one day at a time. When I joined MYO, I was drinking pretty much daily. Just in the last few months, I have logged on religiously and started to live my life with a lot more AF days. I'm not sure that I want to quit drinking forever, and by being here I am learning to moderate more successfully. Fact in point, I went to dinner with a friend last night, had a great meal and a few glasses of wine. When my wine glass was empty for the last time, if I was being the me before MYO, I would have automatically ordered another, even though it would have put me over the top. Last night I stopped before I reached the point of complete drunkedness. So was last night a win or a loss? I prefer to think of it as a win, even though I could have drank a little bit less.
When I woke up with that awful anxious feeling during the night, like I always do when I drink, I didn't let that feeling spiral out of control. Instead, I reminded myself that I did better last night than I had in the past. I'm recognizing that awful feeling for what it is--a very negative side affect of alcohol, and that gives me one more reason to want to get a handle of this problem. I like waking up in the morning happy. I've had so many happy mornings in the past few months. And I'm happier today that I would have been in the past. I'm still a work in progress. Any improvement--drinking less, recognizing problems related to alcohol, wanting and working towards a life that is not dragged down by abuse of alcohol is a positive step in the right direction. That is the beauty of this program. We can figure out through trials and tribulations what works best for us. It may be AF or it may be successfully moderating. Everyone here is my inspiration because you are trying to build happier lives for yourself and for everyone you love. Good luck all!
Julie
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