Haven't really posted here before, so here goes.
Been AF for now 10 days straight and feel fantastic, full of energy, happy, and really living on a high. Its great, but we have people over for dinner tommorrow night and l just don't think l will be able to not drink. I love the way l am at the moment, but am very scared of drinking again, as l have been doing really silly things and feeling really bad the next day because l drink too much. Normally l can limit my alchohol consumption to safe levels, and safe for me, is 4 glasses, but lately l have had too many rough nights and hangovers and l say and do things l dont' really mean to my family. If l have a drink tommorrow night l know l will be fine, but what worries me is later down the track am l going to face that problem of having too much and having regrets over my behaviour.
I have been drinking now since l was 16, and now l am 36.
I only drink wine and l have always only drank socially, but in the past few years my social drinking has really increased. I might drink 1 bottle or more when out to dinner with friends on the weekends. I don't drink during the week, only on Frid, Sat and used to be Sun nights, and l managed to cut out Sunday's now for a while quiet successfully without missing it much at all, but l still can't quit on Frid and Sat nights. I am a pretty social person and enjoy being with others, but l just can't see myself not drinking at all, and l can't see myself going back to drinking. Not sure what to do.
My goal was to try to go 30 days, but not sure l can do it. Why is it 30 days anyway? Is that how long it takes your body to detox?
Anyway, sorry for rambling and l hope it all makes sense.
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