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    This time it is final.

    Regards,

    I am new here but definitely not new to the alcohol game. Instead of being my usual stubborn self I decided that I need support and that is why I am here. AA was not an option as several friends tried that a failed miserably. Today is the start of me never touching that garbage again.

    I have never told myself that I would never drink again but instead insisted that I would be able to drink like a normal person. I would be able to just drink on the weekends and that would last for a month tops before I went back to drinking every night and have been doing so, albeit the infrequent detours, for thirteen years now.

    The longest that I have lasted in those thirteen years without booze was eleven days and I felt fricking fantastic but the addiction is a living, breathing entity that talks to you and tries to coerce you at every turn and soon I was right back to my old ways. I hate it, I hate it with an absolute passion and it is time to stop. I am tired of the hangovers, the shakes that make me feel uncomfortable in social situations, the fights, the looks from my wife, the "props" that my friends give me when I can drink them under the table and still be up drinking well after their bodies told them they have had too much, being too tired to do things with my wonderful children.

    I cant believe the person that I have turned into and given my history with booze I am surprised I ever touched it in the first place. My step father was a total alcoholic that used to beat the hell out of my mother, my grandfather was an alcoholic piece of shit, my aunt and uncle are alcoholics, my father in law drank himself to death just two years ago and my mother drank herself to death in 2005. How the hell did I become like that after everything? Well, its time. I will never touch it again, Im done and I'm going to silence that addiction entity that I spoke of.

    I hope that I can come here when those urges come about or just to vent as I go through this process. Thank any of you that took the time to read this, I could have written an entire novel on what I have been through.
    Whoever I had become, the alcoholic, had to die.

    #2
    This time it is final.

    Welcome, TrueGrit

    It sounds like you're ready to be done with this nightmare. You'll never regret it!

    If you haven't seen it already, the Newbies Nest is a great place to hang out at the beginning. The link is given below. There also is one to the Toolbox -- it is full of good ideas for making a plan, and you do need a plan.

    If you're like most of us, we've done the same thing over and over and over. It takes an effort to do something - anything! - else.

    Hope to see you over in the Nest.

    :welcome::welcome::welcome:

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      #3
      This time it is final.

      Thank you for your reply and information, I will check those out for sure.

      I have done this time and time again except I was trying to drink as a "normal" person. There will be no trying over and over. This is it, never touching that crap again.
      Whoever I had become, the alcoholic, had to die.

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        #4
        This time it is final.

        Truegrit-Welcome. You are in good hands here. Trust me, we've all been in your shoes in one way or another. The loss of life is very scary to me, but very real. My father drank himself to death and now......here am I. How? Anyway, grab on, post daily, many times, as much as it takes and read. Glad to see you over in the newbies nest.
        The easy way to quit drinking?:

        https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ow0lr63y4Mw

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          #5
          This time it is final.

          Hello TrueGrit, and welcome. I completely understand what you are going through and please know that you are not alone. I have also been struggling to be a "normal" drinker, but the fact that I have to think about it so much shows me that my relationship with alcohol is not normal. This is a wonderful place with many supportive people. I wish you much love and strength on your journey!

          :l
          Would you like you, if you met you?

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            #6
            This time it is final.

            True Grit,

            You came to the right place. And you mentioned that you family members were alcoholics but now you have a choose. You can choose to get rid of this poison one day at a time. Stick around in newbies nest and also check out toolbox . you will get plenty of support here so stick around.

            We all are in the same boat myself included and you will lots of ppl her who have beating this poison On daily basis.
            Rahul
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            Updating brain "attitude" firmware ... done ...
            Rebooting ... done ...
            Restarted program called "Life" ... started successfully ...

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              #7
              This time it is final.

              Welcome TrueGrit and remember that being sober is normal!

              So-called Normal drinking is highly subjective - and what is one person's normal is another person's excess -or just not nearly enough. It also depends on the culture and the times you live in.

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                #8
                This time it is final.

                Welcome TrueGrit - a fellow midwesterner! You can do anything you set your mind to! Post often, read much and use this as your lifeline. You are among friends.. ((Hugs))!
                "We need to learn to love ourselves first, in all our glory and our imperfections."
                ~John Lennon

                Whether you think you can or think you can't, you're right.

                ~Author Unknown

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                  #9
                  This time it is final.

                  Hi TG and welcome. It sounds like you have had to endure a lot of heartbreak in your life due to AL. I'm so glad you found your way here and intend to stop the madness. You sound very determined. That's a great start. There's not a bit of waffling in your post, so "props" to you!

                  TrueGrit;1612964 wrote: Regards,

                  I felt fricking fantastic but the addiction is a living, breathing entity that talks to you and tries to coerce you at every turn and soon I was right back to my old ways. I hate it, I hate it with an absolute passion and it is time to stop. I am tired of the hangovers, the shakes that make me feel uncomfortable in social situations, the fights, the looks from my wife, the "props" that my friends give me when I can drink them under the table and still be up drinking well after their bodies told them they have had too much, being too tired to do things with my wonderful children.
                  You've said it all. This is the crux of addiction. AL is a lying bastard and you've called him out. Good for you. Stay strong and stay close. btw...always enjoy meeting a neighbor. Yep - I'm from Wisconsin too. There's a few of us here, so you're in good company.
                  Everything is going to be amazing

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                    #10
                    This time it is final.

                    Thank all of you for your responses and support. I seriously appreciate it! I have already fought off a couple cravings brought on by some of the TV shows I watch where they almost put the drinking in your face, probably going to have to cut those out of my life as well. You guys rock!

                    MossRose;1613090 wrote: Hi TG .always enjoy meeting a neighbor. Yep - I'm from Wisconsin too. There's a few of us here, so you're in good company.
                    I'm right over in Madison. It is going to be tough quitting since we are pretty much the drinking capitol up here. You can spit from your balcony and hit a bar.
                    Whoever I had become, the alcoholic, had to die.

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                      #11
                      This time it is final.

                      TG - I hear what you're saying. Wisconsin is a beautiful state, lovely people, but we're also number 1 in the country for binge drinking. Oh my!! I live in a small town - 2 gas stations, 1 grocery store, 1 hardware store, and at least 10 bars. Makes it difficult, but not impossible. We Cheeseheads are tough!! Let's stick together. LOL.

                      Wisconsin Ranks No. 1 in Binge Drinking ? Snapshots
                      Everything is going to be amazing

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                        #12
                        This time it is final.

                        My naturopath is in Madison! I am there several times a year..visits to Whole Foods and Trader Joe's included! I'm over in Galena..
                        "We need to learn to love ourselves first, in all our glory and our imperfections."
                        ~John Lennon

                        Whether you think you can or think you can't, you're right.

                        ~Author Unknown

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                          #13
                          This time it is final.

                          DipGal;1613123 wrote: My naturopath is in Madison! I am there several times a year..visits to Whole Foods and Trader Joe's included! I'm over in Galena..
                          Somehow I knew the Wisconsinites would be around here lol.
                          Whoever I had become, the alcoholic, had to die.

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                            #14
                            This time it is final.

                            Welcome from a fellow Cheesehead, TrueGrit!

                            I come from a long line of alcoholics....my mother's 3 sisters, and her brother...all alcoholics. Her oldest sister died from it...and my father's only brother. Addiction sucks, doesn't it?

                            I grew up in Waukesha County, I used to live in Madison, and now I've been very happily located near the shores of Geneva Lake for over 20 years.

                            I post on the Monthly Abstinence Forum, but love to lurk over here....especially when I see MossRose here because she's one of my favorite people and kind of like my neighbor, too.:l

                            DipGal-Oooohhhh......I LOVE Galena!!!! I can't believe I actually drove there and back safely whilst I was completely out of it on vodka. CRINGE. Glad those days have been over for quite a while now.

                            TG-keep reading and posting....we'll help you all we can.

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                              #15
                              This time it is final.

                              Welcome, truegrit! This is the place you want to be. Post often and communicate. We are here for you and each other.
                              AF since 10/20/2013
                              Smoke free since 09/24/2007
                              Meat free since 09/20/2008
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                              With will one can do anything - Samuel Smiles

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