Day 135 for me today. Twice in last 30 years I have been AF for 90 days. Today for the first time since being a teenager I have achieved that plus half again.
What is interesting is that I am starting to remember who I was all those years ago and finding out who I am today.
I know all the Mindfulness craze is this year's flavour and it is trendy to be into it at present. However for me it has been useful reading and helped me distill an interest in Eastern philosophy into a western lifestyle. Meditating isn't daft navel gazing, it really has helped me understand myself and is giving me a new perspective on life.
For 30 years when I stopped to think and managed to jump off the mental treadmill, the conversation in my head was always a voice saying "you need to quit the booze" or on other days "when can I next drink"
Now my mind is clearing I am having an internal mental discussion with the old me. He is still there and so are all the old passions, interests and hobbies. I suppose some call this a mid life crisis. If my mid life crisis is to stop drinking, get fit through running, lose weight and start to enjoy each day, then that's no bad thing.
There is a Buddhist saying that if the pond is muddy, stirring it makes it worse. You have to let the water settle for all to become clear. It never made much sense to me before now.
Keep on keeping on everyone.:h
What is interesting is that I am starting to remember who I was all those years ago and finding out who I am today.
I know all the Mindfulness craze is this year's flavour and it is trendy to be into it at present. However for me it has been useful reading and helped me distill an interest in Eastern philosophy into a western lifestyle. Meditating isn't daft navel gazing, it really has helped me understand myself and is giving me a new perspective on life.
For 30 years when I stopped to think and managed to jump off the mental treadmill, the conversation in my head was always a voice saying "you need to quit the booze" or on other days "when can I next drink"
Now my mind is clearing I am having an internal mental discussion with the old me. He is still there and so are all the old passions, interests and hobbies. I suppose some call this a mid life crisis. If my mid life crisis is to stop drinking, get fit through running, lose weight and start to enjoy each day, then that's no bad thing.
There is a Buddhist saying that if the pond is muddy, stirring it makes it worse. You have to let the water settle for all to become clear. It never made much sense to me before now.
Keep on keeping on everyone.:h
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