please help,model turned alcoholic and an embarresment to my baby girl

[available]

please help,model turned alcoholic and an embarresment to my baby girl

Keep posting on here Bimble, this is your blog. Maybe your sister can be your support as she does not drink and should understand your pain. We will be here for you when you need us. We have all lost so much but the good thing is we have all found much more being sober.

[poppy62]

please help,model turned alcoholic and an embarresment to my baby girl

you can come on here any time Bimble and we will all try and help you as much as we can. I do not have anybody in my real life who understands my problem with al but EVERYBODY on here does its such and amazing place what ever you have done said drunk etc somebody on here will have done the same thing so we understand !! We are all good listeners and talkers stay strong xx

[poppy62]

please help,model turned alcoholic and an embarresment to my baby girl

Bim what avail just said is so true being sober you gain so much !!! very wise word Miss Available !!

[bimble01]

please help,model turned alcoholic and an embarresment to my baby girl

i know this sounds stupid,but ive read the tool box,newbies etc,and the advice is amazing!! but why,why cant i stop??i know my depression is down to how much i drink!!i eat so healthily!! god its so daft my dad told me to go suck eggs when he came across in a spiritualist reading when i asked him how to stop drinking!!!it means only i can know what to do!!apparently!sorry ive moaned so much,im just alone again with a can, wishing i was snuggled up in bed with a coco like normal people x

[bimble01]

please help,model turned alcoholic and an embarresment to my baby girl

thank you!!! im not drinking tomorrow! ive promised my little girl,so ill be on here xx

[bimble01]

please help,model turned alcoholic and an embarresment to my baby girl

poppy!available!thank you!!!! xx

[poppy62]

please help,model turned alcoholic and an embarresment to my baby girl

any time Bim my children are so proud of my sober state makes me so proud of me and believe me I have done some bad stuff around them when I have been drunk !!! you can do this xx

[bimble01]

please help,model turned alcoholic and an embarresment to my baby girl

can i just ask,my crunch time is after school!i know theres loads of good advice in the tool box,but what are your tips?hope you dont mind me asking x

[MossRose]

please help,model turned alcoholic and an embarresment to my baby girl

Bimble - we haven't really met, so I hope it's ok if I jump in here. Your posts really resonated with me - especially the part about not being able to pick up your daughter because you were over the limit. I've been there more times than I can count. My sons are adults now, but I live with that shame to this day. It truly is one of the things I regret the most - making excuses to my sons when they were younger and needed a ride because I was already drinking or drunk. Someone else's mom always had to pick up the slack for me. However, you could have made a worse decision, and driven anyway, right? So no reason to hate yourself. Just use it as motivation to kick AL to the curb. That's one of the very best things about being AF now, at least for me...I can get in my car and go at any time. Such wonderful freedom.

Your self-image may be in the toilet right now, but that's really par for the course. Drinking brings on self-loathing, or maybe self-loathing brings on drinking - I'm not sure, but once you get sober, you'll start caring again. I promise. So please try some serious self-care - hot baths (with your chamomile tea), maybe a massage and anything else you enjoy doing. And another thing I have learned is that our children are truly able, and more than willing, to forgive. My sons may not have forgotten my drinking years, but once they learned to trust me again, they jumped at the chance to make things right. Your daughters love you and just want you to be happy.

You've been through a lot. Glad you trusted us enough to share your story. xx

[poppy62]

please help,model turned alcoholic and an embarresment to my baby girl

make a plan to do something else at that time , something with your children coffee with a friend or family member or even have a bath and pamper session thats my advice but plan ahead of time for that time a plan is vital and be prepared to try other things if what you first do does not work so well or come on here !!

[bimble01]

please help,model turned alcoholic and an embarresment to my baby girl

miss available and poppy do you mind if i msg you tomoz if i get scared?ive also foud k9 a big help in the past,just cant do ths on my own xx

[available]

please help,model turned alcoholic and an embarresment to my baby girl

Do not buy al, get rid of all al out of your house. Buy some sugary foods to snack on or healthy, you dont want to drink as much with a full stomach. Keep busy in that "witching hour", mow the lawn, have a bath, go out with your daughter for a drive or a walk. Post on here, be on here whenever you want a drink. Just make it a day by day choice. Most of all think of how much better you will feel and how proud your daughter will be of you. It is hard, we all totally get that bit but it gets easier. Dont just tell your daughter you are stopping drinking Bim, do it. Actions speak louder than words!

I also went shopping in the mornings at first as the bottleshops were closed so i was not tempted to buy al.

PM me anytime Bim, i always have MWO open, at work and at home. I am not ready to cut the cord with MWO and i dont think i ever will be as i never want to be in that pit of al again.

[bimble01]

please help,model turned alcoholic and an embarresment to my baby girl

moss rose,thank you,its taken a lot to admit it xx

[poppy62]

please help,model turned alcoholic and an embarresment to my baby girl

Love your post Mrose If i had one wish it would be to get the years back when my boys were little and I was drinking wish I could do it all again sober !!!. But my children have forgiven me and we are building a great relationship .

[poppy62]

please help,model turned alcoholic and an embarresment to my baby girl

Bimble I dont know what time zone you are in I am in the UK if I am about I will read and reply to your posts but come on anytime as there is always somebody to hook up with this site is amazing !!