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[lead366]

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Right on MROSE!!!!!

Your a winner!

[K9Lover]

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Good job on pouring the poison down the drain MR! That took some strength that I'll bet you didn't know you had!

A slip or relapse is not the end of the journey. If you were walking up a flight of stairs and fell, would you feel like you needed to go back to the bottom to start over? Or would you pick up from where you were and keep going? That's all we can do. And what you've learned in your sobriety is not erased with a relapse. Hang on to it, learn from it, and become even stronger.

I'm glad you're not leaving!! :l:h

[HumbleRider]

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Wonderful, Moss, you got through it, a bit rumpled, but you got through it. Check out Ladies on a Mission. We are managing to keep our sobriety safe over there for the most part and when we don't, we circle the wagons and get to work. A great group of supportive and insightful ladies enjoying their lives for a change.

[Bastet]

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Moss I so glad you listened to everyone and decided to get back on and continue the journey! I am looking forward to hearing your voice around here again.

[available]

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Hi 5 MR, today is another day and so proud of you for realising why you drank and who AT. I promise to myself i will never drink AT people no matter what they do to me. You are a strong beautiful person and so glad you are staying with us. MWO is a better place with you here.

Jane great post, i felt exactly the same as you did and it gives me more strength and determination to beat al.

[lead366]

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Yes

Group hug!

[damo180]

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Congrats MR on coming straight back after a slip. My slips have often gone on for 6 months !!!
This will make you stronger.
Really hope you can beat this again , i m sure you can
Damo x

[j-vo]

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:lGlad you've made the decision to cut that part out of your life. Now that you made that decision, it's time to focus on yourself and get a healthy sobriety plan in place. MWOer's are here for you and that should be at the top of your list--to come here and talk, ask for help.

[MossRose]

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Just got home and realized I missed the group hug. Count me in

Just a quick update.

I had a surprisingly good day. I decided to put this experience into the "learned a major lesson" bucket and get back on track...unlike the old me who would have obsessed for days and days until I had worked myself into a total anxiety attack. I'm not minimizing what happened, but for once, I am putting it into perspective - thanks to all the good advice I got here. Now for the nice news...

I just had dinner with my parents. They took me out to a lovely restaurant, and I just sat there tonight feeling so blessed. How lucky am I, at my age, to have both of my parents alive, and relatively healthy? In fact, on Wednesday my Mom will be 5 years cancer free. So we were celebrating. She beat both breast and kidney cancer. She went through hell, and never complained once. She is my hero. So I refuse to let AL back into my life at this point. I have too much to be thankful for. And she is so proud of me. Tonight I was reminded that willingly throwing my life away would be the ultimate insult.

Obviously, I have no sage advice, but I do have some wisdom to share especially for our newest members. If you are in trouble, don't hesitate, just come to MWO, post honestly, and ask for help. As embarrassed and ashamed as I was, I will never regret my decision to post yesterday. Thank you everyone. You saved me from myself (again).

[Icanwithoutacan]

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Glad you are back MR you helped me through many day 1s! I like your advice for posting right away - so true. Proud if you

[little beagle]

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Mossrose I feel teary reading that post. Thanks for sharing this journey with us.

[spiderwoman]

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Well done you MR, just seen this, look back on it as having a bar of chocolate in the middle of your diet. Not ideal but it won't have undone all the good you've done already. Lovely to read about your mum too! I don't have my parents now and am amazed how much I still miss them and to beat that bastard cancer, that really is cause for celebration :H

Enjoy the now and the future because we can do nothing about the past.

Sylv x

[SoberSoul]

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Hey Moss Rose, I am just coming back from a long absence and was saddened by your first post, in tears reading the responses and feeling hopeful and happy for both of us after reading all of this thread (so far). I kept going back to your Morning Rituals thread for months after you posted it and it really inspired me to create one of my own. You are such an asset to this forum and I am so relieved to see you staying on. xxxx

[K9Lover]

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MossRose;1630983 wrote: I just had dinner with my parents. They took me out to a lovely restaurant, and I just sat there tonight feeling so blessed. How lucky am I, at my age, to have both of my parents alive, and relatively healthy?

:l:h:l Same here MR!! We can't take for granted how blessed we are!! Mine are both alive and kickin' (stronger than I am...LOL) and married 50+ years....enjoy them while you have them, and let them know how much you love them!! My biggest regret would be to be drinking and have something happen to one of them. But now I know I will be sober and able to handle it when the time comes.

How did last night go?

[MossRose]

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Wow - I'm overwhelmed. Ican, LB, Jane, Spidey, SS, and K9 - thanks for coming to my aid when I needed friends the most. Things are going as well as can be expected. I'm still ruminating a bit about why I decided to drink, but think I am firmly back on track. At least, i hope so. I will never be arrogant enough again to think that I don't need MWO.

It's quiet here and I've been fighting a bug for the past week, so it will be an early to bed kind of night for me. I got to spend a couple of hours with my oldest son tonight (the one that lives with me, sort of) and that was fun. He's going on a second date tonight and was on top of the world. That made me happy. Oh, to be young again!!

SS - so glad to see you back. I have missed you so much and wondered often how you were doing. Please post a thread soon (which are always excellent) or PM me. I am so anxious to hear how things are going for you.