4 years ago I made a discreet phone call to a "Paid for expert" about my issue .....He told me I had a serious alcohol problem. I was insulted...did not listen to him...and drank....more.
1.5 years ago I got into trouble......and drank myself through it.
1 year ago I started lurking with AA, community services and the web....and drank more.
9 months ago I went to rehab...and denied their advice...and drank more.
7 months ago I lurked at this and other sites.....and drank
6 months ago I gave rehab a good try
4 months ago I relapsed...and drank a little less
3 months ago I relapsed again...and drank even less
2 months ago I relapsed again...and drank even less again
1 month ago I relapsed again...and drank the least ever.
Two quotes finally sunk into my head which lead me to 32 days stone cold sober....
Quote #1...." If you find yourself in a hole?....stop digging"
Quote #2...." You cant solve your problem with the same thinking that got you into it"
So?.....I stopped digging....and started to feel better.
I started thinking differently...and now I am feeling wayyyyyyyy better.
For all you lurkers and people who are on the fence......I understand completely....I fence sat for years...and only wound up digging a deeper hole. Then I changed my mindset. Take your time....lurk for as long as you feel right.....ask questions and read lots. The decision is yours.
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