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[K9Lover]

I feel like such a failure...

What can you do tonight instead of drink? Can your hubby watch your daughter while you go somewhere... like go sit in a movie even if you don't care what you're watching? Can you go to a friends house that will understand? Anything to change up your routine of going home to drink...

[lead366]

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Honeysoup;1636877 wrote: I am almost scared to go home...I am afraid I am going to fail. I can feel my palms are sweaty because my body wants it...yet my stomach is still very upset...vicious cycle needs to stop...damn damn damn

Hey!!! Relax ok?......your only feeling a hangover...and its only discomfort. Perhaps drink lots of herbal tea...gatorade and take a long bath.......get some great movies for tonight and take care of yourself. It is a few days of discomfort...but thats all it is.

I think you had mentioned before you have supplements?....they do help a lot.

But the big thing right now is relax and take huge slow breaths......no matter what your decision will be for today. I think you want to quit...but your not sure when........this was my issue for many months. Again...stick to this site and read everything you can

[K9Lover]

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Honey - I remember white knuckling it through the first few days and thinking "There's no way I can do this EVERY day"...but guess what? A few days turned into a week, turned into a month, turned into a year...and I didn't white knuckle it every day...it became my normal NOT to drink. Right now your normal is drinking, but you can switch it with some effort. Your body is begging you not to pour any more poison into it tonight...it's your brain trying to convince you that you need it. Listen to your body on this one...your brain will shut up if you ignore it long enough. Remember the feelings of shame, anxiety, guilt, embarrassment, regret...is drinking worth it? :h

[K9Lover]

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Honey -
I really want you to join us over on this thread...I think you'll like it:
https://www.mywayout.org/community/f9...-30-90448.html
We are all FRIENDS there. No judgements. Just acceptance. Please come visit us! :h

[Honeysoup]

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Just wanted to give an update...I made it to bed sober. I love the support here. I know I just need to not stray away...💗

[lead366]

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Honeysoup;1636959 wrote: Just wanted to give an update...I made it to bed sober. I love the support here. I know I just need to not stray away...💗

Perfect!!! See?...Day one in the bag! Well done honey......Make sure to drink gallons of water or juice to flush the toxins........it will only be a few more days to feel brighter.

It will be interesting to know your comments tomorrow if it is even a tad easier then it was today---I would like to know...so would other newbies.

If you feel even a wee bit better...please let us know so we can continue to encourage you forward.....remember...YOU are moving forward.

These first few weeks are Sooooooooooo delicate on your brain and soul...stay close to MWO ok? Nice going for today---YOU WON! BRAVO!

[Pavati]

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Hi, Honey:

I can't say what hasn't already been said. I'm very glad you came here to work through that terrible feeling - so happy you're going to bed sober. Keep it up, and follow all of that advice up above.

xo

[Marylou123]

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Hi Honey - :goodjob:

Welcome to Day 2! Stop by to read and post anytime, we're here to help.

[frances]

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Good for you Honey! Keep up the good work - it is work, but it is sooooo worth it :-)

[K9Lover]

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How is Day 2 going Honey??

[MossRose]

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Honey - hang in there. I would be a hypocrite to give any advice, so just here to lend support and sending a big hug. Stay strong.

[Honeysoup]

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Yesterday - failed again...I had to stay home from work to get some plumbing work done in our basement. All I could think about all day was the beer in the cooler outside. I tried to stay strong but I didn't and I think I threw back about 8 beers last night...probably would have been more if we had more. I need to keep my head in the game...I'm so disappointed in myself, but not giving up.

[lifechange]

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hi Honey, so sorry to hear about your struggles. I just recently had a long bout of trying to string a couple of days together. Just kept putting it off to tomorrow, felt like shit everyday but couldn't stop drinking. One day I felt so desperate and knew I couldn't make any long term promises-- I was so exhausted and sad from letting myself down. Didn't trust myself as far as I could throw a horse. The only thing that worked for me was taking it minute by minute by trying as hard as I could to keep my mind in the absolute present. Not getting down on my failures of the past (yesterday!) and not worrying about how I was going to manage tomorrow. Just right now. I did write down a plan and made an agreement with a long timer here to write her an email or pm every evening-- and began AGAIN to write my name down on the roll call list. I am not so far into it yet, but after just 7 days I feel a world of difference. And after the first day even, I felt such a sense of relief. That Day 1, those first 24 hours can be so tough-- but the leap of faith must be taken! You can do it. You have done it and can again. We are all here to help you...:h

[TJAF]

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Honeysoup;1637460 wrote: Yesterday - failed again...I had to stay home from work to get some plumbing work done in our basement. All I could think about all day was the beer in the cooler outside. I tried to stay strong but I didn't and I think I threw back about 8 beers last night...probably would have been more if we had more. I need to keep my head in the game...I'm so disappointed in myself, but not giving up.

Someone wise once said, "If at first you don't succeed try try again" Someone even wiser said, ?I can resist anything except temptation.? My advise is to get the booze out of the house. Keep at Honeysoup, it will stick.

[lead366]

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Honeysoup;1637460 wrote: Yesterday - failed again...I had to stay home from work to get some plumbing work done in our basement. All I could think about all day was the beer in the cooler outside. I tried to stay strong but I didn't and I think I threw back about 8 beers last night...probably would have been more if we had more. I need to keep my head in the game...I'm so disappointed in myself, but not giving up.

Soooooooo reminiscent of me...and Im sure so many others here as well Honey. Your head is in the game because you posted here..good going. I can see you are trying to get on the first wave---and it keeps bucking you off. The tidal wave of AF is a tricky one---and it takes numerous trys. The first wave to catch is a few days...the second wave is a week. The third wave is 30 days.....and so on and so on.

Just keep reading and think about getting loads of hydration.....and consider all the substances you are putting into your body. Becoming AF requires a plan...so you may as well think of that too. Just think for now...post lots and read lots. One day you just decide to stop....and you catch the wave...and stay on. Then you catch the next one...and then the next. Each wave btw...is easier than the last one. The big thing for today is you caved last night...and woke up to tell your friends at MWO. So?....you are gaining a bit. Please read as many posts here as you can...its actually a fun journey.