First time posting and a bit nervous

[aeg]

Hi, I've hopped on and off this site and never posted. I'm an alcoholic and drink 6-8 drinks every evening. I own a bar so it's really easy.
I need to stop drinking. I'm so sick of myself for not being able to quit. I've tried thousands of times.
When I read your posts, I know I'm not alone. Don't know why I feel like I should be able to do it on my own because the truth is I can't. I'm 58 years old and I want the rest of my life to have more quality than what I've been giving myself.
Today.... again.... I tell myself I'm not going to drink. It doesn't help that my husband likes to drink as well. He doesn't drink as much as I do and not every day either. I would love support.

[hart]

First time posting and a bit nervous

Welcome AEG. I'm glad you found our place. Well you have quite a challenge owning a bar and having a husband that drinks, but anyone can do it if they really want to. You can drink club soda or other thinks at the bar too. My husband is a much heavier drinker than me and he finally went AF (alcohol free) with me again. But it took several false tries. There are lots of very supportive people here and we would love you to join us. You will be surprised how much better you will feel both physically and mentally. Read others' struggles and keep posting!

[lead366]

First time posting and a bit nervous

Hello AEG...Welcome here.

You should be nervous...all of us were...many of us still are.....but wayyyyyy less.

Its such a complicated topic with many tricks to the trade and thats why we cant do it alone. The more info you have?...the easier the journey is and actually can be a pleasant experience. Dont fret...just read alot for now and get some basics learned....like reading some books on alcoholism...reading lots of posts...checking out supplements...and looking at diet and hydration. All these areas are related. In fact,...I read many articles stating that 96% of alcoholics are hypoglycemic and they are not aware. This condition causes as much discomfort as the booze. Weird huh?......just one of many little items you can pick up on your journey. Join the newbies roll call and post lots and read lots. Wish you well

[lead366]

First time posting and a bit nervous

Hello AEG...Welcome here.

You should be nervous...all of us were...many of us still are.....but wayyyyyy less.

Its such a complicated topic with many tricks to the trade and thats why we cant do it alone. The more info you have?...the easier the journey is and actually can be a pleasant experience. Dont fret...just read alot for now and get some basics learned....like reading some books on alcoholism...reading lots of posts...checking out supplements...and looking at diet and hydration. All these areas are related. In fact,...I read many articles stating that 96% of alcoholics are hypoglycemic and they are not aware. This condition causes as much discomfort as the booze. Weird huh?......just one of many little items you can pick up on your journey. Join the newbies roll call and post lots and read lots. Wish you well

[Buddysmom]

First time posting and a bit nervous

I know how you feel. I am starting over again today. I am a serial relapser. My quality of life is null and I feel stuck and can't seem to get anything done. Going to a meeting tonite to help get me back on track. I want my serenity back. I will be 54 this year and want to be sober this year.

[MossRose]

First time posting and a bit nervous

Hi AEG and welcome. I was also very nervous when I finally took the plunge and posted for the first time. I don't know what scared me more - posting my story or simply admitting I was an alcoholic. But it turned out to be the best decision of my life and I think you will feel the same way soon. There is so much hope here. So please stay close and post often.

AEG, we are close in age, so I know how tired you feel. I also understand your desire for peace and meaning in your life. That's what brought me to MWO too. I just want to live the rest of my life with clarity and integrity. One thing I have learned is that sober is definitely better. And when I test that hypothesis (as I have on occasion since joining MWO), I am only more convinced that I am moving in the right direction. I may take a few steps backwards at times, but I always come right back. I'm determined to win this battle. You can too.

You definitely have some major hurdles - owning a bar being the biggest. This may sound simplistic, or totally ignorant, but is there a way you can avoid your business for a while? Maybe take a leave of absence, or is that not possible? If not, then bring your smartphone or tablet or laptop to work and post constantly. We'll help keep you strong.

Glad you are here. xx

[Byrdlady]

First time posting and a bit nervous

Welcome aboard!
2 great links in my signature line....Newbies Nest and the Tool Box. As the name suggests, the Tool Box is full of tips and ideas to help you get on your way. Read and post! We are glad you're here! Byrdie

[little beagle]

First time posting and a bit nervous

Aeg :welcome:
I know that quitting in your situation seems impossible but it isn't. While I don't own a bar I do live with someone who use to drink. When I quit it was very difficult with alcohol in my face constsntly. But determination and help from the wondsrful people on this site helped me change my life.
My hubby quit drinking too. He was so impressed with the joy I got out of being af that he chose to join me.
If I can do it, you can too.
Start with the toolbox and newbies nest and just take it one day at a time.
:ll

[Lavande]

First time posting and a bit nervous

Hello & welcome aeg

Hop over into the Newbies Nest thread for support. That's what I did five years ago & it worked for me, you can do it too!!!

Wishing you the best!
Lav

[spiderwoman]

First time posting and a bit nervous

Hello AEG - you're roughly the same age as I was when I joined and stopped (had a birthday since) - you will be amazed at how well you feel after a relatively short time - keep on reading and good luck

[New Dreams]

First time posting and a bit nervous

Welcome AEG

I am 59 soon to be 60.....I joined MWO about 4 years ago under a different handle, was trying to moderate...the idea that I didn't have to quit forever really appealed...however I discovered, for myself at any rate, that doesn't work. So I'm back & newbie nest & roll call help me stay focused on my sobriety. I am fortunate enough to have a husband who is also going AF now as well...and I have 3 friends I email as well that have years of the AF journey behind them, that I finally had the courage to correspond with once I made it to a week sober I am now 2+ weeks. You'll find loads of support here. :welcome:

[MossRose]

First time posting and a bit nervous

AEG - c'mon back and let us know how you are doing. Thinking of you.

[aeg]

First time posting and a bit nervous

Thank you!

Wow! Thank you all for posting! You are so kind. I was kicking myself again all morning for not being able to "not drink" yesterday and when I read you posts I feel inspired to try again. Today is another chance to make my life better. I have so much to be thankful for. I have a respectable thriving business and how can I expect my staff and costumers to respect me if I don't... or can't. I need to change my behavior, no, I want to change my behavior. Thank you for giving me the strength to go at it again.

[lead366]

First time posting and a bit nervous

aeg;1638211 wrote: Wow! Thank you all for posting! You are so kind. I was kicking myself again all morning for not being able to "not drink" yesterday and when I read you posts I feel inspired to try again. Today is another chance to make my life better. I have so much to be thankful for. I have a respectable thriving business and how can I expect my staff and costumers to respect me if I don't... or can't. I need to change my behavior, no, I want to change my behavior. Thank you for giving me the strength to go at it again.

Hey it takes a few trys to "get it".....and its really important to read alot about this condition. I agree with you......if you have a problem with Alcohol....its only a matter or time when you will lose your staff and customers. Just keep trying and posting..and try the roll call...even if you slip it helps alot.

[aeg]

First time posting and a bit nervous

Day 1 is going well so far and it's 11pm!

I'm so proud of myself. It wasn't difficult today, that's good. Hope tomorrow will be as easy. Thanks for your support.