I've been lurking around on the edges of this forum for a fortnight now, posting replies every now and again and starting to get a feel for all the different souls out there. I live in Melbourne, Australia and I know there are a few countrymen battling the addiction who have also stumbled upon MWO. To say the book has changed my life would be an understatement. I have barely drunk since finishing the last pages, but that isn't to say I don't work on it 24/7 and still feel very vulnerable. Tonight I am going to a party and I hope and pray I stay strong. Trouble is, my life revolves around the wine bottle! my hubby and I drink every night and our friends are HUGE drinkers too. I play golf, then drink. I work, then drink. I take the kids to sport, then drink...you get the picture. Well, yesterday the supps finally arrived from the States and I've divvied them all up into their little containers ( felt like an old woman buying one of those dispenser packs from the chemist!) . There are so many vits to take and my wee has turned yellow !! is that too much information? the CD's are ordered and the red tea has been consigned to the bin ( I'm sorry, it's yuk) . So, now I just have to keep truckin on...
On a positive note to any brand new comers, the feeling of waking up in the morning fresh and headache free is wonderful. I truly feel like a new person! I have drunk every day of my life for 30 years and I had forgotten that it wasn't normal to feel so crappy. AND, I love being in control again...not engaging in risky behaviours or saying damaging things to people I love. Who knows, I may salvage some self respect back one day.
Anyway, i just thought it was time I shared a little of my story after gaing strength from all of yours.
Thank you so much.
Jane
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