Good morning my fellow friends! I am proud to say I made it to day 7...1 week! I feel so good about this quit. Its time to quit for good. I haven't been posting much, but I have been sticking to my plan. I have been trying to eat healthy, drink lots of water and green teas, reading on MWO. I also have inquired about a rehab group and have been trying to get it set up. I also told myself I would watch a clip or video of some sort on YouTube about alcoholism. It's been a real eye opener for me as to the feelings I have that go on inside my head. There seems to be a connection to it when I compare it to what others have learned and shared. I am still a little confusued about alcoholism...some say its a disease some don't, some swear by AA some say its not the way to go.
I also have told my family how I need there help...I had a talk with my kids and told them to be completely honest. They both said they are worried about me and they don't like me to drink. Its not healthy, I am not the same person, and sometimes I just leave and drive drunk because I am mad at my husband and they are so scared I am going to get hurt or hurt someone else and never come back. Let me tell you those were some very hard words to hear. Definately something I needed to hear and that is a big part of my recovery. I love my kids SO very much and I hated they were seeing me like this or telling me there thoughts. I feel just awful for putting them in a position to worry about me when I should always be the one to take on the worries in the house.
I am also seeing a theripst once a week who is really committed to me and my healing. She is not experienced with alcoholics but she can help with my demons. I also want to thank a certain person for allowing me to call her in needs from MWO. I remember when this person was struggling like me and she has been sober now for over a year. I am so proud of her and I thank God for bringing her in my life. Thank you so much K9Lover! You have truly helped me and you are a strong amazing woman!
So like I said...day 7 for me and I am still looking forward to getting better and better every day. I am still somewhat cranky and emotional and I seem to get some mood swings. But on a good note...I am sleeping so much better, I am getting my energy back, I am able to focus at work a little better everyday. For those of you starting out, hang in there, keep coming back, we will not give up on you. We will beat this TOGETHER!!!
I also have told my family how I need there help...I had a talk with my kids and told them to be completely honest. They both said they are worried about me and they don't like me to drink. Its not healthy, I am not the same person, and sometimes I just leave and drive drunk because I am mad at my husband and they are so scared I am going to get hurt or hurt someone else and never come back. Let me tell you those were some very hard words to hear. Definately something I needed to hear and that is a big part of my recovery. I love my kids SO very much and I hated they were seeing me like this or telling me there thoughts. I feel just awful for putting them in a position to worry about me when I should always be the one to take on the worries in the house.
I am also seeing a theripst once a week who is really committed to me and my healing. She is not experienced with alcoholics but she can help with my demons. I also want to thank a certain person for allowing me to call her in needs from MWO. I remember when this person was struggling like me and she has been sober now for over a year. I am so proud of her and I thank God for bringing her in my life. Thank you so much K9Lover! You have truly helped me and you are a strong amazing woman!
So like I said...day 7 for me and I am still looking forward to getting better and better every day. I am still somewhat cranky and emotional and I seem to get some mood swings. But on a good note...I am sleeping so much better, I am getting my energy back, I am able to focus at work a little better everyday. For those of you starting out, hang in there, keep coming back, we will not give up on you. We will beat this TOGETHER!!!
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