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    I killed the box of wine this morning- like a crazy person!!!!

    Ok,
    so this is funny but also truly sad. I had a new box of white wine, my alcohol choice. As those of you know if you are into the box wine you
    1. have a major problem and
    2. Have to buy it for the cheapness and the larger amount needed.

    so i started out my Monday morning with the usual alcohol voice in my head. Im not going to drink during the week. by the time I get home from work, i pour a glass, two then three big glasses of wine, do not remeber even going to bed, and awake with a half of glass of wine on my bedstand...... wonder WHY????????

    So this morning I was so angry with myself. I have been feeling very ill due to my drinking and know I need to stop completely!!!! so at 530 am i was in my kitchen, pouring the wine down the sink, then took a knife and stabbed the box like a killer. I only can imagine if a neighbor saw me. In my mind it was smybolic as to something i need to kill off for good!!!

    Any thoughts???
    ?Tomorrow is the most important thing in life. Comes into us at midnight very clean. It's perfect when it arrives and it puts itself in our hands. It hopes we've learned something from yesterday.?

    ― John Wayne
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    #2
    I killed the box of wine this morning- like a crazy person!!!!

    Good for you! It's good to physically react sometimes instead of just fighting the fight in our heads. I'm sure it felt great!
    ?A year from now you will wish you had started today.? Karen Lamb

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      #3
      I killed the box of wine this morning- like a crazy person!!!!

      Two thoughts: 1) to conquer any demon, you must first be able to name it. Sounds like you recognize AL for the demon it is; 2) come up with a plan for how to remain AF today -- how you will get through your witching hours? Exercise, meditation?, posting on MWO? going for a walk and bringing no money with you?

      Loved the image of you attacking the box
      Free at Last
      "What you seek is seeking you." -- Rumi

      Highly recommend this video
      http://www.ted.com/talks/brene_brown_on_vulnerability.html

      July 19, 2013 -- the beginning of being Free at Last

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        #4
        I killed the box of wine this morning- like a crazy person!!!!

        Good for you! Did you hear the theme from "Psycho" playing in the background? :H

        Now...what about tonight? Around 3pm or so you may start questioning your decision. I've had many days where I thought "WHY did I pour it out? Now I have to buy more!"...so now we need to get you through that hump. Can you stay distracted tonight? Maybe go out somewhere?
        :heart:I love my daughter more than alcohol:heart:

        Believe in yourself. You are stronger than you think.

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          #5
          I killed the box of wine this morning- like a crazy person!!!!

          good for "killing" that box...hang onto that feeling
          I love my family more than alcohol.:h
          Live in the Solution....not the problem

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            #6
            I killed the box of wine this morning- like a crazy person!!!!

            Good for you... felt good didn't it? Stay close..
            "If you do not change direction, you may end up where you are heading."
            Lao-Tzu

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              #7
              I killed the box of wine this morning- like a crazy person!!!!

              Thank you all so much for the support. I will do take your advise and keep busy. I do have a meditation cd that came with my supplemnets. Maybe i will go get ice cream.
              ?Tomorrow is the most important thing in life. Comes into us at midnight very clean. It's perfect when it arrives and it puts itself in our hands. It hopes we've learned something from yesterday.?

              ― John Wayne

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                #8
                I killed the box of wine this morning- like a crazy person!!!!

                Someone told me their AA sponsor told them if they felt like drinking to go drink a milkshake, and if they still felt like drinking, have another milkshake, point being if you can drink after that, you're not an alcoholic, you're crazy

                The ice cream is a good call.
                In the middle of my life's journey, I found myself in a dark wood, as I had lost the straight path. It is a difficult thing to speak about, how wild, harsh and impenetrable that wood is. Just thinking about it recreates the fear. It is scarcely less bitter than death, but in order to tell of the good that I found there, I must tell of the other things I saw there. --Dante, paraphrased

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                  #9
                  I killed the box of wine this morning- like a crazy person!!!!

                  I read the thread title and thought by"killing it"you meant drank it,glad it was the real kind of kill,let it be symbolic for you,you killed the vile poison that tries to kill you
                  I have too much shit to do today and tomorrow to drink:sohappy:

                  I'm taking care of the "tomorrow me":thumbsup:
                  Drinkin won't help a damn thing! Will only make me sick for DAYS and that ugly, spacey dumb feeling-no thanks!

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                    #10
                    I killed the box of wine this morning- like a crazy person!!!!

                    Awesome..... And we are all their with you.. Everyday, every minute..,

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