Tough day today

[Softy]

After so long and doing so well I got a bad case of "oh fuck it all" today

Alcohol has been on my mind for months but only in a cocky "haha I beat you" sense of arrogance and self congratulation

I came very close to having a drink to block out low mood

Rather than drink to celebrate good times, drowning my sorrows will inevitably prove too strong a pull on me at some stage


I beat the bastard today but I feel he may have gone to get reinforcements

Let battle commence

[nancy]

Tough day today

learning new coping skills

Hi Softy,
I totally understand where you are coming from. I think that alcohol is an understandable escape mechanism for low mood but with terrible consequences sometimes.

I have come to the conclusion that it takes a willful move to address those feelings in order to avoid the bad escape mechanism.

How could you address the low mood next time? What would help you cope aside from alcohol? I think it's important to think about that.

[Softy]

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Thanks - everyone needs help sometimes and I know a cry into cyberspace here usually gets me a connection with someone who will send support THANK YOU SFx and Nancy and thank you MWO

[NotHappyHourHappyLife]

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Hugs, Softy. :groupluv:

Any idea why the low mood?

:h Patty

[Softy]

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Lots of things - Sunday blues but who knows - I live with the black dog - some days he bites me hard

[JackieClaire]

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Softy;1654306 wrote: After so long and doing so well I got a bad case of "oh fuck it all" today

Alcohol has been on my mind for months but only in a cocky "haha I beat you" sense of arrogance and self congratulation

I came very close to having a drink to block out low mood

Rather than drink to celebrate good times, drowning my sorrows will inevitably prove too strong a pull on me at some stage


I beat the bastard today but I feel he may have gone to get reinforcements

Let battle commence

Well apart from the fact I would smack you upside the head................that sounds like a self-fulfilling prophecy.

The inevitable will be that drinking will put you in a much lower mood and the cycle will begin again. We all suffer from low moods its because we're becoming normal...........a normal non-drinker. We don't have to be cheery and happy clappy all the time. It's allowed to feel hacked off as long as we recognise it for what it is.....a low mood............it will pass.

233 days is not to be sneezed at, you've worked blooming hard for that, Softy, and I'm proud of you. Be proud of yourself.

Keep on, keeping on.

[Softy]

Tough day today

I told everyone there would be a black dog with a bite but I didn't mean you JC!

I am doing well and the fact that I am here having a whinge and not under a table in the pub tells me I am still strong

Still rather have a moan than a drink - thanks to you all again

[JackieClaire]

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Softy;1654317 wrote: I told everyone there would be a black dog with a bite but I didn't mean you JC!

:H:H

Ahh my Black Bess wouldn't bite anyone................smother you to death maybe but not bite.

[Byrdlady]

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Hang in there, softy! Everyone gets those stray thoughts from time to time, just push them out and keep moving!
Hey, at least you are FEELING the moods now...back in the day we would have just numbed up, only to find it WORSE afterwards ( got to add Guilt/Shame/Remorse to the situation).
Protect your quit with all you've got!!! Byrdie

[Softy]

Tough day today

Cheers

Early night

Tomorrow's a new day

[damo180]

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Howya Softy,
Good to see you, all be it during a tough time for you.
I really hope you can see this it out without a drink.
I relapsed after 9 months some time ago and it was such a big mistake.
It has been so harder after that quit.
I m back on track now.

Do yourself a big favour and do what it takes to not have a drink.
You really helped me get going again a while back.
I took your advice on the calm app and it s a great way to start my morning.
Stick around here for a while , i m sure the great people here will help you get through this difficult time.

You are a sound man and lets keep on keeping on.

Take care pal.

Damo in Dublin

[scottish lass]

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Sorry you are feelin gthis way softy - but well done for getting on here about it before it is too late. I hope that sharing gives you added strength for when that crazy voice comes back with reinforcements.

[little beagle]

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Softy good for you coming here first. You are such an inspiration for me. I admire you.
Hope the moods passes off swiftly. And if it returns, we will be your reinforcements.
:ll

[available]

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Softy big hugs and proud of you for not drinking and posting about how you feel. Shows the newbies that this is what this site is for, support and more support. Even us with days up have days where we just want to say "fark it".

Thank you for keeping me on track, you have been an honest inspiration on helping in my journey to stay sober. We all have those nasty al thoughts we just have to have our plan in place on how to deal with them and you are showing how it is done.

Hugs xx

[j-vo]

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Softy,
You've got lots of AF time, but no matter how long AF time anyone has, it never pays to let this roll off your back. To me, it needs the attention of being aware that a down feeling, just one, can lead to a drink if we don't take some kind of action. I'm not saying you need to freak out at being down or sad, but since you said "I came close to having a drink," leads me to believe the flag is waving and needs attention. Since October, I've had a lot of AF time, and the few times I slipped was when I became depressed or down about something. This is a huge red flag for me to just be aware, "hey, I need to watch out, because this is when I f-ed up before." Talk to someone you trust. I messed up with that as well. I didn't reach out, phone someone from MWO to get immediate help. I let the beast brew inside me until it was too late. Hope you're feeling better.