I stumbled upon this forum as I recently hit my bottom I guess. I hurt the one I love the most because I got blackout drunk with a coworker and didn't stop her sexual advances in time. Making out occurred, and that's where I stopped it.
I am not the kind of person to hide/be dishonest, etc. I told my girlfriend soon after. She needs time to think, but isn't saying goodbye yet. If she does, I don't blame her either. What I did is inexcusable, and while a sober me wouldn't have ever allowed what happened to happen, it did in fact happen.
She confessed that she had been concerned with my drinking for a bit, and just didn't know if it were her place to tell me about it.
While I'm really sad right now, I see the situation as it is, with no sugar coating. I want to do something about it, and I'm day 4 of AF. It hasn't been that hard really. I think I'd like to work on moderation eventually, but right now, till things are settled one way or another with her, I'd like to abstain.
I'm not really sure why I'm posting here, but here I am. Thanks for listening.
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