I'm tired of her ADHD shit. She doesn't want to do anything but take her meds. Her house is a mess with barely room to stand. She doesn't want to know what I think. Letting me pick out her psychiatrist was a futile gesture. Now her daughter stopped all therapy, all medication. I remain the enemy, intact for them to focus on as well as her mom whom she is dependent on after almost 60 years. Meanwhile I chose her psychiatrist after consulting the psychiatric nurses I worked with as well as all the research my schooling (BA in psych) as well as the eight years on the psych unit could afford me. But I'm the idiot.
I feel so bad for her daughter.
What do I say to her? I can't rescue her if she doesn't want to be rescued. How can I help her daughter? I had a hard enough time leaving the children's home because they came to trust me. (though her daughter is well beyond that I think.) How do I leave when they don't have the strength?
I thought when I move to IT that the additional money would help us, that I was doing it for us. Instead I get how she needs to feel special and wants to know that I want be with her. I don't know. Had to answer her last text and a little angry. Need a fresh start. Am I out of order? Insane? Errrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!
At least I don't have jury duty in the morning. Got my celery juice and ..... well, me and you. Another day 1.
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