Hello again MWO friends! Up until the past few weeks of mostly lurking, I?ve been away for about 4 years. Four years, and not a single AF day, none even attempted. My quit in 2010 lasted less than 10 days. I?d like to give it another go in the near future, and have been contemplating how to identify and address the reasons that I failed the first time.
For sure I bit off too much in trying to become AF and NF at the same time. Won?t make that mistake again. I relied too much on the MWO supplements and RJ?s book, thinking that buying all the ?right? quit aids would make for magic. At the time, I didn?t realize how much fear/anxiety would arise in saying goodbye to my best friends, Al and Nic, and became panicked and overwhelmed with those feelings. My plan contained no alternative, end-of-the day relaxation/sleep-inducing options, to passing out after much wine consumption, which has been my method for 30+ years. That?s what I remember about my failure anyway, though it occurs to me to go back and read old posts for truths I have forgotten.
On to the present. I online-ordered Antabuse after reading of others? experiences with it. This is a tool I need. I?ve arranged to have eight days? worth of diazepam on hand during detox, according to the protocol Jackie Claire has posted. Thank you, JC! I?m working on planning 3 meals a day, plus snacks, for the first week, using guidelines from Rational Recovery. I?ve located a Yoga studio nearby, and will be investigating available classes. Today I bought the book, The Four Agreements, and will soon order Jason Vale?s Kick the Drink Easily, as both have received good reviews from MWOers.
Enough for now. There?ll be more to my plan, of course, but don?t want to wait any longer to step out of the shadows. Got room for one more?
Pie
For sure I bit off too much in trying to become AF and NF at the same time. Won?t make that mistake again. I relied too much on the MWO supplements and RJ?s book, thinking that buying all the ?right? quit aids would make for magic. At the time, I didn?t realize how much fear/anxiety would arise in saying goodbye to my best friends, Al and Nic, and became panicked and overwhelmed with those feelings. My plan contained no alternative, end-of-the day relaxation/sleep-inducing options, to passing out after much wine consumption, which has been my method for 30+ years. That?s what I remember about my failure anyway, though it occurs to me to go back and read old posts for truths I have forgotten.
On to the present. I online-ordered Antabuse after reading of others? experiences with it. This is a tool I need. I?ve arranged to have eight days? worth of diazepam on hand during detox, according to the protocol Jackie Claire has posted. Thank you, JC! I?m working on planning 3 meals a day, plus snacks, for the first week, using guidelines from Rational Recovery. I?ve located a Yoga studio nearby, and will be investigating available classes. Today I bought the book, The Four Agreements, and will soon order Jason Vale?s Kick the Drink Easily, as both have received good reviews from MWOers.
Enough for now. There?ll be more to my plan, of course, but don?t want to wait any longer to step out of the shadows. Got room for one more?
Pie
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