Hello All!

[WinterBlues]

I am new- I have been reading these forums for a few weeks now. I think I just want to start by saying "hi," if that's OK.

[WinterBlues]

Hello All!

I want to

but, I don't feel totally comfortable yet on an internet forum. I will say this- the reason I signed up was/ is because I am drinking way too much- and I hate the person I am when I drink. I am two very different people when I drink vs. when I am sober- and I started reading these forums, and realized that was true for most folks

I don't like it- I want to quit.

[Byrdlady]

Hello All!

Welcome aboard!
I was two people also.... it was like I had a secret life of lies and sneaking around. There at the end it was just exhausting. Links to the Newbie's Nest and Tool Box are in my signature line below. You would be hard pressed to tell us something we haven't seen/heard/DONE! UGG. We are glad you're here! We can help! Byrdie

[Londoner]

Hello All!

:welcome:

You're in the right place for support - these guys are fantastic.

Feel like a drink? Check in here and have a chat, someone is normally about.

That bi-polar feeling is common. It's the AL, it's not you.

[WinterBlues]

Hello All!

Thank you all

Yes, I am completely miserable with my drinking. I am at the point of hiding it constantly- I even carry a little bottle of bourbon in my purse, and sneak into the ladies room to take a quick drink.

I hate who I have become- this has been going on for 2 years now. I hide it from everyone.

[treetops]

Hello All!

Welcome winter blues. As the others say this is a very forgiving website and we have many different ways we have dealt with our AL problems. There is no pressure and I am sure you will find it very supportive as well as informative. :welcome:welcome:

[Byrdlady]

Hello All!

Winter, I am a fixture in the Newbie's Nest...it is well known that I used to hide booze in a hairspray bottle in my purse and I did the same thing as you! I'd go in the bathroom and take several gulps. It tasted funny, but it didn't matter!
One time I was in an airport restroom and I was fumbling with those little bottles and I DROPPED one on the floor. I was mortified, but I picked it right up and drank it. Gosh, I wonder what those people in the next stalls thought!!! There is a thread call, "You Know you're an alcoholic when......" It's got tons of stories like these....you don't know whether to laugh or cry! I'll bump it up for you so you can find it under the new posts. We are all in the same boat, and I can tell you, there is a way out! So glad you're here! Byrdie

[WinterBlues]

Hello All!

Thank you Byrdie!

I am barely functioning- and you would not know it to meet me. I have a masters, am a professional, married to a professional- rarely touch alcohol in social situations. I drink alone, and alot.

[Byrdlady]

Hello All!

Hells Bells, we are all brilliant people here! We have veterinarians, tons of nurses, VP's of companies, dentists, healthcare professionals of all kinds, IT gurus! This can happen to anybody! Sometimes I ask myself, WHY ME? But why not me? I'm not better than the next person! You will find some really wonderful folks here, we all got snookered in by the lure and escape that AL provided but we are also smart enough to do something about it!! I have made some strong and lifelong friendships here...truly some of the finest people I've ever 'not' met!!

I started as a social drinker...then it moved to the closet...then just constantly. That is the power of addiction. But, it only takes a few AF days to make you feel like a shiny penny again! I promise! Byrdie

[available]

Hello All!

Hi Winter and welcome. I came here years ago, like many of us and gave up for awhile and ran away to moderate, very unsuccessfully i may add but now i am a "regular" like a lot on the nest. This is my AA, this is my support network and in some ways this is my home, where i feel safe and secure. I can be honest on here and always accountable for myself not drinking. I finally got over the lying and the guilt and the shame that i felt when drinking. I have none of that being 7 months sober. My depression has lifted, i have barely any anxiety, i wake up every morning to face the day head on with a sense of contentment i had not felt for years and years.

Best of luck and i would still be drinking if not for the love and support of MWO, we cant do it by ourselves, we need our fellow alky friends as support and what a great bunch of people they are.

I was a 2 bottle of wine a day drinker, any day that ended in a Y was a good drinking day for me and weekends, well i could celebrate more with 3 bottles. I never want that life again, al will never rule my life again but i do know that i can never have another drink of al in my life and thats okay.

[NotHappyHourHappyLife]

Hello All!

Welcome, WinterBlues... the good news it that it is summer here in the Northern Hemisphere... so if you live near us, then this can be your season to make changes.

My name is Patty and you can ready my story in "Welcome to the Window Shoppers" thread- that is my accountability thread. You are welcome to use this thread to tell your story, or go to the the Newbies Nest and post on there... keep in mind there are 7 billion in the world... my point is there is anonymity here at My Way Out. :l Shoot, maybe my real name is Ralphie?

Quitting is scary... there is a world of unknowns out there, and when alcohol has control of your emotions, it seems it is impossible.
There is normally someone nearby on this forum to listen.

Hugs. :groupluv: