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    I want out of Hell!!!!

    :new: I am new here, but definitly not new on this addiction rollar coaster!!!!! I will be 44 tomorrow, and have been drinking and drugging since I was 12. I have tryed numerous ways to stop to no avail. I had my last drink this morning and am trying to relieve some of the withdrawal symtoms with ativan and klonipin. I hate drinking but I always find myself right back in the bottle. Running out of hope, totally isolating!!! It sucks!!!
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    Addiction is isolating. There is always a degree of shame that forces us to hide our drinking behaviors. Come on over to the newbie nest. All there are struggling to overcome AL. Many on day one. You'll find support from those there as well as advice from those who have been where you are. You are not alone. Welcome

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      #3
      I want out of Hell!!!!

      Welcome Nurse alicat.

      Here are 2 great threads you may find useful. The newbies nest as mentioned above by Cherokeer, and our Toolbox. You can do this. Dig in and take your precious life back.

      https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...est-30074.html

      https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...box-27556.html

      G bloke.

      'I am part of all that I have met, yet all experience is an arch wherethro', gleams that untravelled world whose margins fade, forever and forever when I move'

      Zen soul Warrior. Freedom today-

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        Nursealicat, welcome !! We were all and many of us still are where you are. Alcohol digs deep when it sinks it's claws into us. It took me many years to get a handle on it and without MWO I never could have done it. The people here will hold your hand, give you a talkin' to if need be and generally support and encourage you every step of the way. Stay close and read, read, read. Post often if you want to but immerse yourself in this community and miracles will happen. I am living proof. xoxo
        "If you do not change direction, you may end up where you are heading."
        Lao-Tzu

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          #5
          I want out of Hell!!!!

          Welcome aboard!
          I was 51 before I was able to get off the hamster wheel, so I am sure you will be able to stop the madness if you want it! Getting your mind right is most of the battle as you know. Once you can get control of your thoughts, the rest falls into place. Hope to see you over in the newbies nest!! We are glad you're here! Byrdie
          All you gotta do, is get thru this day. AF 1/20/2011
          Tool Box
          Newbie's Nest

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            I want out of Hell!!!!

            I hope you get over to the Newbies Nest and get settled in. MWO changed my life. It can change yours too.:welcome:
            No matter how far you go or how fast you run, you can't get away from yourself. ....said at an AA meeting. It stuck with me.

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              I want out of Hell!!!!

              Nursealicat- I've heard before that the best way to escape from hell is to be so good they kick you out! Easier said than done, I know. Try everything again, just don't stop trying to quit. Ultimately, no one can stop you but you. But do it for those around you that care, and find a way to fight those demons.
              “Hope is being able to see that there is light despite all of the darkness”- Desmond Tutu


              STL

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                #8
                I want out of Hell!!!!

                Thanks to everyone for such a warm welcome!!! It feels good knowing that i am not alone!!! I am looking forward to talking more with you all!!

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                  #9
                  I want out of Hell!!!!

                  nursealicat;1688131 wrote: :new: I am new here, but definitly not new on this addiction rollar coaster!!!!! I will be 44 tomorrow, and have been drinking and drugging since I was 12. I have tryed numerous ways to stop to no avail. I had my last drink this morning and am trying to relieve some of the withdrawal symtoms with ativan and klonipin. I hate drinking but I always find myself right back in the bottle. Running out of hope, totally isolating!!! It sucks!!!
                  Nursealicat - Welcome and Happy Birthday!!! What better gift can you give yourself than a day that is alcohol free? As others have said, come on over to the newbies nest - you'll find tons of support from other people who are just starting out as well as others who are at various stages of their own AF journeys.
                  Everything you want is on the other side of fear.

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                    #10
                    I want out of Hell!!!!

                    nursealicat;1688131 wrote: :new: I am new here, but definitly not new on this addiction rollar coaster!!!!! I will be 44 tomorrow, and have been drinking and drugging since I was 12. I have tryed numerous ways to stop to no avail. I had my last drink this morning and am trying to relieve some of the withdrawal symtoms with ativan and klonipin. I hate drinking but I always find myself right back in the bottle. Running out of hope, totally isolating!!! It sucks!!!
                    First off, let me also wish you a happy birthday. I can relate - I am 41 and am only about 40 days myself.

                    Let me caution you though about the benzodiazepines. If you're not consuming alcohol, you will need them to avoid possible seizures. However, benzos affect exactly the same neurotransmitters and brain receptors as alcohol. If you overdo it, you can literally end up substituting your alcohol addiction for an equally dangerous benzo addiction. Please be careful with them and only take as many as you need to keep withdrawal symptoms at bay. Don't get high on them. Good luck!
                    In the middle of my life's journey, I found myself in a dark wood, as I had lost the straight path. It is a difficult thing to speak about, how wild, harsh and impenetrable that wood is. Just thinking about it recreates the fear. It is scarcely less bitter than death, but in order to tell of the good that I found there, I must tell of the other things I saw there. --Dante, paraphrased

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                      hi i'm new to this and at 54 have today taken my 1st 5mg of self prescribed Baclofen.
                      I have had a very fast relief of anxiety and no desire to drink, but this has left me with a void and very mixed feelings, mainly good !
                      Does anyone have similar experiences and how did you deal with dosages as the medics here in the uk careth not !
                      I'm enjoying reading about you all and having spent 40 years relying on alcohol to exist i'm entering a whole new arena, I hope and would appreciate any support

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                        #12
                        I want out of Hell!!!!

                        Welcome Nurse Alliecat and Dave! :welcome:

                        Dave,
                        I don't have any experience with Baclofen, so I'm sorry, I can't offer advice.

                        You can read/write on the Newbies Nest, or start your own thread, if it will help you be accountable to you. There are many people here willing to help you, if you want to get off the crazy train.

                        :groupluv:
                        "God didn't give you the Strength to get back on your feet
                        so that you can run back to the same thing that knocked you down."                         :hug:

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