Just another cautionary tale
MR~ Thanks for sharing your story, you obviously have so much to bring to this forum!
IWMB~ I want to share your writing on" Cravings" very well written and I feel this is a proper thread. Thanks again
MR~ Thanks for sharing your story, you obviously have so much to bring to this forum!
IWMB~ I want to share your writing on" Cravings" very well written and I feel this is a proper thread. Thanks again
The Craving: (in a most wicked and condescending voice), "Day 3 for you. You must be proud! All the congratulations must give you a sense that you can actually fight me off! Haa haa! For now, you will. The physical symptoms you feel right now are your strength, no one likes to feel like shit, oh the embarrassment, the shame, the guilt, the missing work, the laying around for a whole day, the not remembering what you said or what was said to you, the shameful texting..... Go ahead, think you can beat me"*
ME: "I hate you Craving. I know you don't care. All you care about is getting me to take that first sip, that first drink. Do not for one second think that I am not aware of the false sense of hope you give me on these first days when I feel sick and ashamed.*
I don't know how you can be so powerful, the anxiety you can create in me is distressing. I don't want you now, but I know in a few days I will begin to bend to your lure. How do you do it? What sick pleasure do you derive from this? What is wrong with you?"*
The Craving: "You're right, I don't care... My game is to get you to take that first drink because we all know, there is no such thing as ONE drink for an alcoholic. Even if one night you take only ONE drink, it won't be too many nights away that the one drink will turn into an oblivion of drinks and I will have won 2-3 of your days. Days which you can never get back! I know you so well!! and that is my pleasure"*
ME: "You make me sick! You make me physically, emotionally, and spiritually sick! For now Craving, your power is strong and for so long you've made me think you were more powerful. You put up a good deceitful and manipulative fight, BUT I'm on to you now... I know the anxiety you can create can be so strong, I can feel it run through my veins! But I'm on to you. You keep me up at night but as I get stronger, I will sleep through your evil tactics. And you know what Craving? All I have to do is .. NOT TAKE THAT FIRST DRINK! - I am on to you Craving and I will fight you to the end ... and as time goes on, you will weaken. In fact, in time I won't even think about you, and if you do come lurking around, I will remember your once held power and Will Not give it back to you! You are an evil SOB and I have my fight on!"*
The Craving: " We shall see, LoL!"*
ME: "And so we shall...."*
Good Night. Fighting It. Hate Cravings...*
IWMB*
ME: "I hate you Craving. I know you don't care. All you care about is getting me to take that first sip, that first drink. Do not for one second think that I am not aware of the false sense of hope you give me on these first days when I feel sick and ashamed.*
I don't know how you can be so powerful, the anxiety you can create in me is distressing. I don't want you now, but I know in a few days I will begin to bend to your lure. How do you do it? What sick pleasure do you derive from this? What is wrong with you?"*
The Craving: "You're right, I don't care... My game is to get you to take that first drink because we all know, there is no such thing as ONE drink for an alcoholic. Even if one night you take only ONE drink, it won't be too many nights away that the one drink will turn into an oblivion of drinks and I will have won 2-3 of your days. Days which you can never get back! I know you so well!! and that is my pleasure"*
ME: "You make me sick! You make me physically, emotionally, and spiritually sick! For now Craving, your power is strong and for so long you've made me think you were more powerful. You put up a good deceitful and manipulative fight, BUT I'm on to you now... I know the anxiety you can create can be so strong, I can feel it run through my veins! But I'm on to you. You keep me up at night but as I get stronger, I will sleep through your evil tactics. And you know what Craving? All I have to do is .. NOT TAKE THAT FIRST DRINK! - I am on to you Craving and I will fight you to the end ... and as time goes on, you will weaken. In fact, in time I won't even think about you, and if you do come lurking around, I will remember your once held power and Will Not give it back to you! You are an evil SOB and I have my fight on!"*
The Craving: " We shall see, LoL!"*
ME: "And so we shall...."*
Good Night. Fighting It. Hate Cravings...*
IWMB*
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