30 Day June Club,goal, Drink Less/Drunk less be

[adaptable]

30 Day June Club,goal, Drink Less/Drunk less be

Well, it's the third evening in a row that I've been drinking now, but not like I used to. 4 beers last night and 4 the night before. Used to be 10-14 beers. I'm not going to drink any beer tonight because I really don't want to go back to old habits. I'm just so damn happy not to be suffering with headaches and feeling good again. I have so much energy and so many projects and not enough time in the day. Just saying 'hey' to all of you, and keep posting.

[jane rees]

30 Day June Club,goal, Drink Less/Drunk less be

Hi guys
Hey Kali...now it's not a slippery slope treasure, just dangerously smooth in places...but then we get our grip again and ALL IS WELL!
we're doing great. Adaptable feels better for not drinking so heavily, she's got her energy back and the headaches under control and GG is inspirational ( even though she doesn't know it ). Good effort. How many were AF for Wed 6th June then?
I was and am still doing well. Headaches improved somewhat, but having some bad cravings. I had stopped the supps, but may start them again. I can't stop eating sweet stuff, I will be the size of house soon!
Jane x

[garden girl]

30 Day June Club,goal, Drink Less/Drunk less be

hi everyone I definately do not feel inspirational today I drank last night and usual pattern felt so bad knowing I could not stop myself that I drank about 15 units in one hour on an empty stomach in the greenhouse. My eldest daughter has exams this week and is very upset and stressed by me being drunk twice this week. Im not going to rant on because my guilt is terrible at the moment I cant quite way up why I had a drink last night I only know that I do not have a choice, for the sake of my children and my marriage I have to try and completely abstain, I do not trust myself to drink at all. I know part of my desperate feelings this morning are simply due to that horrible anxious hangover feeling, but most of them are because I feel such a bad mum and wife, I hate myself for hurting the people I love and yet I feel that I wish they wouldnt feel so hurt because they know I am trying to stop drinking/getting drunk. But after five years of it, thats not going to happen untill I stop getting drunk. I have no doubt that I will achieve it I just wish that I had a week of afs in front of me and then I know I would feel better. All I can do is keep believing that it will happen and keep trying. As I havnt downloaded the book yet and take no supps at all I wondered if you would all let me know what you take for the cravings that you actually thinks works. I will get the book. :upset: :teeter:

[evergreen]

30 Day June Club,goal, Drink Less/Drunk less be

Hi all,
Kali, lets pull each other up the slope!! I drank again last night - 4. Frustrated with myself but ready to start afresh. GG stressful week here as well. My daughter graduates on Mon. Sunday we have 100+ people coming. I need to get a grip. I cannot slide further down. Last 7 days - 5 AF 2 Drinking. Louise I'll do 6/7 AF with you? You in?
Best to all!

[kali]

30 Day June Club,goal, Drink Less/Drunk less be

Today is just hopeless for me. I bought a bottle of very expensive vodka, the russian kind thinking I would do better, but NO.

I wish you guys so much luck for the rest of the day, minute or week... Evergreen you can make it with all those people coming... and GG you will make it because of your girls, they need you too.. This will get you through.

I'm home alone thank God - I'm calling a dr. today, I don't care how much it costs me... I'm dead if I don't.

Love you guys, soooooooooooo very much

[kali]

30 Day June Club,goal, Drink Less/Drunk less be

:upset: Jane I didn't see your post (don't have my glasses on) anyway, my slope just slid into hell.............. Thanks to all for your support, keep trying.

Love, Kali

[louise]

30 Day June Club,goal, Drink Less/Drunk less be

Beautiful mud

:heart: to all this mornimg. All this talk of slippery slopes made me think of a trip to Hawaii and a hike to a waterfall. The rain came and suddenly it was like walking on ice - fell several times and was covered with red mud. It all started out so fun, then my clothes were ruined, etc. A bit like drinking for me. Jane, sounds like you are doing well. Why did you stop the supps? Because of the headaches? Sure would be great if we could figure out which one is the culprit - if any. Gardengirl, do you have any of the program stuff? Please get it. For me the CDs have been SOOOO helpful. The L-glutamine really helps, and I think the Kudzu. You could try them in small doses to see how your body reacts. Could you make yourself eat something when you drink? Kali, we are here for you. Just get back up, give that vodka away. I don't know if you are using the drink tracker, but I find it so helpful. I just hated having to put in 6 for that whole bottle of wine. Evergreen, 100 people??? Yes, I will take the 6/7 challenge. Starting when? Last night? Today? Let me know. I did not drink last night. We met friends for dinner. They picked a place because of the food and it did not serve alcohol. I used to avoid restaurants with no alcohol. I automatically started looking for the beer/wine list but was fine when there was none. All for the best to just have temptation removed. Have a great day everyone and hi to all who have not checked in for the day. :rays:

[adaptable]

30 Day June Club,goal, Drink Less/Drunk less be

garden girl and kali, all the info you need to stop and take care of your drinking problems are on this site and you'll use it when you?re ready. You're ready when you're ready. Sometimes it just takes a while. I know it took me a long time. Years as a matter of fact.

I?m so happy you guys! The Topa REALLY WORKS! Yesterday my hubby and I went to sign for another loan to pour more money into the barn, and stopped to have a bite to eat and we ordered a beer, except I only wanted a small one and didn?t even want to finish! ME! When we got home, my hubby filled a pitcher from our barn, and I had a couple of sips and didn?t want any beer! Preferred water! ME, THE BIG BEER DRINKER!!! Now that?s really different! I?m usually running back and forth filling that pitcher. I?m really liking this Topamax and I?m only taking 50 MG.

[louise]

30 Day June Club,goal, Drink Less/Drunk less be

Adaptable, Where is this barn of yours? I might come visit some timewhen I'm up that way if you promise to start carrying non-alcoholic beer. My favorite is Clausthaler - hint, hint.

[garden girl]

30 Day June Club,goal, Drink Less/Drunk less be

hi everyone its evening here now in uk, I thought I would post again as I felt so down on myself this morning. Feeling a little better and more positive now, I really find that my meditation helps get through the day. I went for a 7 mile bike ride and did a two hour garden job so I feel good for not letting a hangover stop me from doing what I needed to do. AF today another good thing so lets get back on track everyone we all seem to have struggled this last day or so. Thanks to you all for your support.:groupluv:

[evergreen]

30 Day June Club,goal, Drink Less/Drunk less be

Kali,
In my relationship with alcohol, I always see myself as walking around the edge of an abyss. Sometimes i venture in a little ways sometimes I skirt along the edge - not a full blown alcoholic but I have spent decades in a very dangerous place hanging out on the edge. This is me throwing you a rope to pull you back. Lets get away from the edge. Thinking of you. Hang in there. No waste to dump that vodka down the sink. Louise, so far so good on 6/7. Yes 100 people, in and out probably more. Pray it doesn't rain. GG, 7 miles impressive. I have a garden you are welcome to!! It is great to have others to struggle with! God bless.

[kali]

30 Day June Club,goal, Drink Less/Drunk less be

Evergreen,

Thank you so very much.. Today, I ordered Antabuse I'm going to give it a go... I know for sure I won't drink on that med. I have also spent 18 years off and on the edge, but now I've fallen into a huge black hole.

Good luck to all of you struggling, you all mean a lot to me..

Kali

[louise]

30 Day June Club,goal, Drink Less/Drunk less be

You've taken a big step Kali, good for you. Evergreen, I'm still not sure when we are counting from. Yesterday? Today? I drank on Mon 6/4 so for me to make 6/7 days the earliest we could start counting from would be then and I would have to be very good until next Mon - a whole weekend. I think I can do it, we are going out of town for the weekend. But I would feel a bit more confident if we started from yesterday or today. Anyone else want to join us?

[louise]

30 Day June Club,goal, Drink Less/Drunk less be

Duh, Evergreen. Oh to have back those dead brain cells. I thought you meant use the garden girl counting system and go for 6/7 days. Lost track of the fact that the date today was 6/7. Yes, I'll join you in af today. Garden, glad you are feeling better. By your counting system, aren't you still doing better than you were even with yesterdays slip?

[garden girl]

30 Day June Club,goal, Drink Less/Drunk less be

hi everyone, Louise even I am getting confused by my counting method, I too read all the posts yesterday and couldnt quite way up wether people were 6 out of 7 days af or was it the date so to clarify for myself, in the past 11 days including today I am 8 days af. I still find it more encouraging to count my af days as a rolling target instead of always reverting to day 1 again everytime I slip. Kali dont give up we have all been at the bottom of that pit, but the pit you are in has a ladder in it, just get on that first step and keep climbing a step at a time. Have a good day everyone i will check in tonight.:ranger