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    My dear friends ...

    GWAWK !! oh and that MAE thing too ..

    First off I would like to offer my sincere apologies for basically dropping out of the MWO radar. Last time I logged in was on Christmas day..and honestly I feel bad about that.

    Good news is that its now been one full rotation of the earth around the sun since I have had a drink. Not unlike Softies post on 52 weeks I am not seeking praise or Large Ladies Panties ( Although I could probably use a cowboy hat )

    So here's the skinny on whats happened work wise. My boss stopped paying me due to not having any money back during the Holidays. I never got a check for christmas ( my regular check..not talking bonus ). This went on for a few weeks so I ended up leaving and getting another job. My newer job was going good until I concluded that I could not afford my monthly bills. After speaking with the jackass owner about my monitary shortfalls to no avail I then decided to start up my own biz. Needless to say being Sober for some time had me sharp as a tack and smart as a whip ( dont ask me how smart those things are..I have no clue actually ). I did Very well for myself in such a short time. I now have the nicest newest vehicle Ive ever owned. I have more money than I have ever had. I have everything I could want/need for the first time in my adult life. Still..somehow..Its not bringing me the happiness I thought it would. Although its nice not having to worry about bills anymore.

    The Divorce went final several months ago and boy howdy what a great relief that is ( my jackass lawyer is suing me for another 2 grand for some reason though lol ). The schedule for the boys, that I thought at the time would work for me, is every other weekend, every Thursday and Tuesdays following Her weekend. So on "my" week its Tues,Thurs,Fri,Sat,Sun and drop them off Monday. Well this worked out well during the summer due to the fact that I could pick them up early on my days ( seeing as Im self employed now ) .. but now that school started Im getting these bullshit excuses like "im not done grading their homework..or there not done with homework ( they are home schooled ). I mean..WTF .. She can have them take a friggin day off school to go do something else whenever she wants..but I have to wait another stupid hour and a half before I can pick them up because of some lame excuse. .. Sigh. I might have to go back to court to ask for a full week on and off.

    So thats basically whats been going on "in life". Now how about me you ask ? .. .. go ahead and ask.. .. Ok Lady and NMSugar.. since you asked nicely...

    Well continuing being AF is really an non-effort on my part any more. Its just Me now...part of who I am. I could try to go on and on about it..but its actually as Simple as that. I DONT DRINK.

    At one point just a few months ago I felt on top of the world. I was happy..content and of course sober. However lately I have been finding myself in a cynical state of mind. I dunno..its like now im realizing that basically Everyone has a 'game' and Im not included ( unless I can somehow be taken advantage of ). Everyone from my Ex to clients. Oh yea..im not too terribly happy about the way im beginning to think about my ex and her family. Its like everyone wants to Take take take. So the world that I was so on top off is leaving a bitter taste in my mouth. Just going to have to suck it up and roll with the punches. But its nice being able to dodge them with ease instead of falling into the bottom of a bottle to not feel getting hit now . I guess I just need to find something that brings me happiness other than my boys. I thought I would get used to the 'schedule' by now..but unfortunately not yet..

    So in closing I would like to give some encouragement to those of you starting or thinking about starting the road to sobriety. Stay vigilant ! The world opens up in many different ways along the path. Sure you have some Real ( and I mean Real crappy days ) but they dont last long. Perceptions change..you see things differently..you react differently. When you persist through bad you get unimaginable rewards. Its like "Someone" is watching..and gives you a part of yourself as you go along. In bits and pieces you become more and more who you were meant to be. Do this single greatest thing you can possibly do for Yourself. Your here because the inner you yearn to be set free. Stay close to the nest and never close up. Above I described how cynical I have become of others..but not here. These are real people with real hearts of gold. I have Never found anyone like you..Thank you.

    So I guess thats all I have for now. I really should fly to the Nest and dust off my favorite perch more often..a lot more often...

    Peace and Love
    Dave
    Progress lies not in enhancing what is, but in advancing toward what will be. - Khalil Gabran
    AF: 9-10-2013

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    My dear friends ...

    Thanks for sharing that Dave! That's a great success story, being able to overcome some of life's biggest hurdles and triggers for people like us. Finance up and downs, marriage issues involving children. You sir are to be commended, this is another fine example of when life feeds us a shit sandwich, and it will, we are so much better off during and after when ALCOHOL is not in the picture.
    Great post and great job.
    Hope to see you around, you obviously have a lot bring to these rooms!
    Stay Hard!
    Matt
    AF 08~05~2014


    There is a 100% chance I can't do this by myself! ~ Me

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      #3
      My dear friends ...

      Success stories are very inspirational to new and old alike, thanks!!
      Quitting and staying quit isn't easy, its learning a whole new way of thinking. It's accepting a new way of life, and not just accepting it, embracing it...
      Worry about tomorrow, tomorrow. Just get through today. Tomorrow will look after itself when it becomes today, because today is all we have to think about.
      Friendship is not about how many friends you have or who you've known the longest. It's about who walked into your life, said "I'm here for you", and proved it.

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        #4
        My dear friends ...

        DAVE!!!!

        I am so, so happy to see you back here! I have often wondered what happened...

        I am glad that for the most part things are going well for you...and man, that is AWESOME that you are still AF! I am SO PROUD OF YOU!!! :h:h
        :heart:I love my daughter more than alcohol:heart:

        Believe in yourself. You are stronger than you think.

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          #5
          My dear friends ...

          Oh Gamble it is so nice to hear that you are still sober and basically loving life. I have always wondered what happened to you and how life had treated you in your sobriety. You did kind of drop off the face of the earth and i know i missed your cheery posts on your life.

          I have to agree with you that not having al in my life is a total bonus everyday. We still have to deal with the shite that is thrown at us but as you say it is so much easier to deal with sober. I am sure some will post about PAWS so check that out, takes 2 years apparently for us alkies to get it all together but hey whats two years in the scheme of life when we had been drinking for years and years.

          I am so happy for you and congrats on your 1 year anniversary. It would be lovely for you to pop in again and keep us updated. 9 months here now and its a joy to wake up every single day sober after the initial "life sucked" thoughts. Take care and only you can change Dave what is p**ing your off. I thank god my ex's stay right out of my life where they belong!!!!!
          AF free 1st December 2013 - 1st December 2022 - 9 years of freedom

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            #6
            My dear friends ...

            DAVE! It is GREAT to see you! I am so glad that you have remained AF! Its the ONLY way for us! Drinking AT people an AT situations only comes back to bite us in the butt.

            We were having this very same conversation (flat spots) in the 100 day Maintenance thread today, come check it out!

            BTW, here's your hat! Well done on one year!!!
            zwink:

            Your fan, Byrdie
            All you gotta do, is get thru this day. AF 1/20/2011
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              #7
              My dear friends ...

              Onya Dave!

              Great to hear from you and congrat's on a year AF mate.

              Bravo! G bloke.

              'I am part of all that I have met, yet all experience is an arch wherethro', gleams that untravelled world whose margins fade, forever and forever when I move'

              Zen soul Warrior. Freedom today-

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                #8
                My dear friends ...

                Hey hey Dave Gambler
                so glad you out there and kickin'. Well done on the year!! Sounds as if it were quite the ride. Hope you stick around.
                Sam
                Liberated 5/11/2013

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                  #9
                  My dear friends ...

                  Dave - so good to see you back. I thought about you last week when I was visiting my hometown...Detroit. Glad to hear that you managed to navigate the divorce sober. Please, don't let the bitterness in - that is our downfall.

                  Hope to see you around more!!!
                  Everything is going to be amazing

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                    #10
                    My dear friends ...

                    Hello Dave ,

                    This is truly inspirational. Your journey will inspire all of us. Staying AF especially in troubled time is I guess a test and you are passing it everyday !

                    Congratulations !
                    Rahul
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                    Rewiring my brain ... done ...
                    Updating brain "attitude" firmware ... done ...
                    Rebooting ... done ...
                    Restarted program called "Life" ... started successfully ...

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                      #11
                      My dear friends ...

                      Hey Gambler Dave!

                      CONGRATS to you on your 1 year AF :yay:
                      I'm happy to see you & those smiling little faces again.

                      You've had a tough year but have come through just fine. Keep the patience going because things will level out for you. Stay focused in your new biz & those little guys!

                      Wishing you continued success

                      Lav
                      AF since 03/26/09
                      NF since 05/19/09
                      Success comes one day at a time :thumbs:

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                        #12
                        My dear friends ...

                        Thank you all for the warm welcome back

                        I just had a wonderful day with the boys..now 'my week' is coming up so Im thrilled.

                        Having already known that I would have very little tolerance for BS and fakery just took me by surprise.. specifically with the amount and quality of it lol. I guess learning patience and some form of understanding towards those that I would imagine have no other choice but to resort to self preservation via living in bubbles or behind masks. I know things will get better. Like I said..I was on top of the world just a short while ago. Taking on new and bigger responsibilities is just part of growing into my sober life.

                        Oh..and I forgot to add how proud my kids are with me! Ill tell you there is no other feeling comparable to this. We went camping a few weeks ago for example. Instead of me just hanging out at the site drinking beers at the crack of dawn..I took the guys out fishing..in a row boat..catching so many fish we almost sunk . They being boys had to stab them in the eye a few times with a stick..but hey we had fun. Stayed up playing risk and other games. I let them take a crack at chopping wood with the machette knowing that I was completely clear in case something happened. I do Way more with them than before. Every moment we are with each other is Focused on that time. You can tell the difference how differently they are with and towards me now..and that is by far the best thing that has come out of my Sobriety thus far ( IMHO ). They are all I have now..and I want them to have the best of me.

                        Hey AL..put that in your pipe and smoke it !! .. .. Meh..I dont think he can hear me anymore

                        Dave
                        Progress lies not in enhancing what is, but in advancing toward what will be. - Khalil Gabran
                        AF: 9-10-2013

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                          #13
                          My dear friends ...

                          GAMBLER!

                          So very happy to see you check in and to celebrate your one year anniversary with you!

                          I miss your posts, too - your Gambler Ramblers. I was worried about your sobriety (as I am with everyone who just drops off like that), so I am so glad to read that you were busy starting a business and hanging out with your boys. Being a sober parent is SO great!

                          Best to you. Thanks for checking in...

                          Pav

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