I was verbally abusive and nasty. Everyone I care about is used to that from me at this point. Everyone.
I am so sick of this- I have found much solace and wisdom in the "Toolbox." The newbies nest isn't for me, yet.
I need to make a plan, but am slowly starting to realize that sobriety isn't going to just "happen" for me. I have already written to her and apologized- not just an apology- I flat out told her I was drunk.
I have reservations at a resort in the mountains next Saturday night. I don't want to get drunk and fall apart and not go. I want to go and enjoy myself AF. It's a very short term goal, but it's a damned goal, and I need that right now.
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