Pleased to meet you all!

[JustMyself]

54 year old professional woman here. Heavy drinker for most of my life.

I broke my shoulder last month and have needed some heavy pain killers. This, of course, did not stop my drinking. In fact, I think it got worse because of anxiety over my shoulder. I also have pills for anxiety and for sleep. What a mess.

Long story short - after having nightmares all night I woke up at 3:30 am literally screaming. I realized that I was likely going to kill myself if I continued. My ex has end-stage cancer and I have to stay alive for my kids.

So here I am. One day at a time. I simply cannot be trusted to drink.

[scottish lass]

Hi JM - lots of folks in similar situations here - I am 52, also professional, and a single mother who has to stay alive for my kids. My ex is not dying, but he is not an active father in any shape or form.
Join in the newbies nest, take a look around the tool box - pull up a chair and join us! You can do this and feel so much better for doing so.
Many more will be along shortly with better direction (links to the places mentioned) etc...
Welcome - you have made the first great step - now just keep moving forward....

[Byrdlady]

Hey Just!
I have directions to the Newbie's nest and the Tool Box (see my signature line). You can get sober with those 2 links alone! I am a 55 year old professional and I thought there was NO way I could give up my best friend, but I just celebrated 4 years sober, thanks to this place. Join us over at the Nest and just jump right in. Most of us dont bite the fist week or two! We are so glad you found us! You CAN do this! Byrdie

[JustMyself]

Four years! Wow. Congratulations.

And thanks to both you and Lass for the welcome. I may wander over to the Newbie's Nest in a bit. :thanks:

[Byrdlady]

When you get there, read back a week or so so you know what's going on. There are 8 years of history in that one thread! Including my own....you are not alone! B

[available]

Hi Just and welcome. I too have to stay alive for my kids. Like SL my ex is around but couldnt rely on him to save my life.

We all seem to hit our own bottom with regards to al and the good thing is that there is a way out of the pit that al digs for us.

I have been sober for over a year and finding MWO was my saviour. It took a few stops and starts but until i finally accepted i cant moderate or drink and once i accepted that fact, it was not so hard.

See you in the newbies nest, as Byrd says we dont bite and we understand what you are going through.

Take care

[Pavati]

Hi, Just!

Just another middle-aged professional woman with kids who depend on her saying hello. The booze will cause the anxiety - I can't believe how much less anxious and moody I am now that I don't drink.

I agree with Ava, acceptance was my key. I can't drink, so no use fighting myself about it all the time. Take the choice off the table, and look forward to a better life.

Pav