Did the unthinkable

[lizker]

Full time relapse. Six months wasted. Very angry with myself, this thing always comes with vengeance.

[aquamarine]

Lizker, Sorry to hear of your relapse. BUT- you haven't wasted six months at all just had a slip. I feel like I really have sabatoged myself in the past when I let a slip turn into worse because I get so desperately down on myself. Try to focus on how well you did for six months and how capable you know you are to do it again.

[abcowboy]

That's a tough one Liz, 6 months AF is nothing to sneeze at, but the good thing is that you know it can be done. No lecture from me about a new plan, what went wrong, what triggered it, etc. as you've heard all that before. You're back, you're trying again, you've learned from your mistakes, and now working to get to 7 months, and we're behind you all the way!

[paulywogg]

Lizker,those 6 months are definitely NOT wasted! Don't even think like that, you've learned skills in that time to live sober, they're still there any idea what happened?could you feel it coming? I always can feel it coming on, you're here so that means you picked yourself up and ready for 6 more months and beyond

[lizker]

Thanks all for the kind words. Am basically still surrounding my self with the wrong people. Heavy drinkers. I thought I could socially drink the alcohol free beer socially, big mistake. Funny u say that Pauly because I did feel a strong feeling of hopelessness got closer to relapse. Like I jus opened a door I couldn't closer. I guess alcohol is much smarter than we are and will go at any length to get us back

[paulywogg]

Aww Liz, it's hard when your friends are drinkers, can't really find a new group of friends to hang with and can't expect your current friends to not drink just cuz you don't, that's why it's up to us to be strong, it can get hard though, especially when you're constantly bombarded by alcohol, but for 6 months you've been able to do it,you can and WILL do it again, why not hang around MWO more?seems like we don't see you very often, just try and check in when you can

[Pie]

So sorry to hear this news, Liz. Have you figured out how to bolster your sober plan going forward? Might make sense to post here on MWO daily. There's a lot to be said for hanging with like-minded people, in terms of support and accountability. Read around the various threads, and pick one, (or more), that feels comfortable. It's hard to beat the Newbies Nest for gaining strength and sharing ideas.

Glad to see you back, and hope you'll stick around.

[lizker]

Thanks Pie for your encouragement and Ms Pauly. I happen to work in a very restricted job environment where I basically have no ability to check in as much as I would love to. Iam pretty big on nutrition and fitness. Plenty of protein and fruit usually gets me on the straight and narrow. But as Aqua Marine Said, the energy it takes to pick urself again is the question. Very tough week.