I'm back after letting my guard down and drinking alcohol again. I'm back though and apologise to everyone who offered me support not so long ago (I lasted a whole 2 weeks, then a day!). I'm ashamed and angry with myself and did consider not posting but need to come back. Everyone on here is so supportive I know I need to just draw a line and start again instead of beating myself up.
I was just reading Jason Vale and thought this bit was really good and might help other people in the same situation as me. Like others I'm sure, when wanting to give it up so much eventually It can start to feel like when you're trying to diet with food and the worry of not having those couple of red wines round an open fire, or a few beers with friends whilst camping, or a well earned glass after a long drive etc start to creep in but as we all know in reality its never like that and those thoughts are just bubbles in our minds! 1 or a couple is never enough once that chain reaction starts and even though I remember some nights (not many) didn't end badly, the majority over the past god knows how long have left me with self loathing and resentment at letting a drug leave me powerless, un attractive, miserable, depressed, moody and ill.
I was just reading something Jason Vales book and thought it would help me and others in the same situation as mine to get back up and keep on going towards a better, healthier lifestyle.
he talks about stopping thinking about what we'll loose all the time, and how moderation is similar to dieting, you just think about what you're missing all the time until you reward yourself and cave in. He says you are giving up absolutely nothing only:
" headaches, hangovers, the lethargy, the bad breath, the beer gut, the arguments the violence, being overemotional, regretting things you have done but can't remember doing, getting things out of proportion, putting things off all the time, the stress, the overdraft, the taxis, the guilt, the lies, the deceit, the brewers droop, the mood swings, the break down of the immune system, the lack of resistance to all kinds of diseases, the destruction of brain cells, excel weight, and most of all, THE DAILY MENTAL AND PHYSICAL SLAVERY OF BEING A DRUG ADDICT.
I'm going to write these down and stick them on the fridge, cupboards etc even if my friends and family do see them. I'm going to get this into perspective, why should I be embarrassed about giving a drug up that gives you all that? society has gone mad to get lulled into taking it. When I look at alcohol I'm going to remember what it really is no matter what its dressed up in, its a drug, that is addictive and destructive and I'm choosing to stop taking it and look at non destructive ways to help me cope with winding down and feeling better about myself.
Sorry this is so long. Thank you too to everyone on this site who helps the likes of me, we really need you when the people around us can't see our struggles and inner loathing, you are so supportive, I hope I can help others too one day. .:thanks:
I was just reading Jason Vale and thought this bit was really good and might help other people in the same situation as me. Like others I'm sure, when wanting to give it up so much eventually It can start to feel like when you're trying to diet with food and the worry of not having those couple of red wines round an open fire, or a few beers with friends whilst camping, or a well earned glass after a long drive etc start to creep in but as we all know in reality its never like that and those thoughts are just bubbles in our minds! 1 or a couple is never enough once that chain reaction starts and even though I remember some nights (not many) didn't end badly, the majority over the past god knows how long have left me with self loathing and resentment at letting a drug leave me powerless, un attractive, miserable, depressed, moody and ill.
I was just reading something Jason Vales book and thought it would help me and others in the same situation as mine to get back up and keep on going towards a better, healthier lifestyle.
he talks about stopping thinking about what we'll loose all the time, and how moderation is similar to dieting, you just think about what you're missing all the time until you reward yourself and cave in. He says you are giving up absolutely nothing only:
" headaches, hangovers, the lethargy, the bad breath, the beer gut, the arguments the violence, being overemotional, regretting things you have done but can't remember doing, getting things out of proportion, putting things off all the time, the stress, the overdraft, the taxis, the guilt, the lies, the deceit, the brewers droop, the mood swings, the break down of the immune system, the lack of resistance to all kinds of diseases, the destruction of brain cells, excel weight, and most of all, THE DAILY MENTAL AND PHYSICAL SLAVERY OF BEING A DRUG ADDICT.
I'm going to write these down and stick them on the fridge, cupboards etc even if my friends and family do see them. I'm going to get this into perspective, why should I be embarrassed about giving a drug up that gives you all that? society has gone mad to get lulled into taking it. When I look at alcohol I'm going to remember what it really is no matter what its dressed up in, its a drug, that is addictive and destructive and I'm choosing to stop taking it and look at non destructive ways to help me cope with winding down and feeling better about myself.
Sorry this is so long. Thank you too to everyone on this site who helps the likes of me, we really need you when the people around us can't see our struggles and inner loathing, you are so supportive, I hope I can help others too one day. .:thanks:
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