Go figure, the day I want to write something well thought out, I stayed up too late last night and didn't get a nap yet after going into work.:P
My first post here wasn't in the Nest, but a part of it really strikes me reading it now. https://www.mywayout.org/community/sh...but-I%27m-glad
I can tell anyone thinking about this whole sober thing, that things have turned out literally better than I'd ever hoped, and I found more of myself than I thought i even had left in me. I don't mean it was easy or that life is perfect, that'd be a lie. But the things I've been able to do sober, the parts of my life that have improved, and the healing my mind and body have managed in just a year? FAR far more than I'd even hoped when I was starting out.
What worked for me? Reading and posting here, for one. I was on these forums constantly for the first...I'm not even sure how long. Quite a while. I read new posts and old posts, anything to keep my mind focused on needing to quit. When I did wander off for a couple months after the site change, I made a decision to come back. I wasn't having drinking thoughts (yet), but I felt like I was setting myself up by staying away.
Other than that, I tried to listen to advice, especially the kind I didn't want to hear. Getting all the AL out of the house. Not going places that would make me want to drink. I developed plans, and learned what to tell myself during a craving so I didn't give in.
I want to thank everyone here, so very much. I'm starting to have my LIFE back, here; that's a huge thing. And sorry this was short (well, short for ME lol); I really am tired. But NOT hungover.
My first post here wasn't in the Nest, but a part of it really strikes me reading it now. https://www.mywayout.org/community/sh...but-I%27m-glad
What I want most is to be...myself again, I suppose. I don't want to have that thought of "Hmmm, I'd like to do this weekend thing, but I'm not sure if I'll be ok if I can't drink." I want my head clear to sort out a lot of life issues that I've been hiding from dealing with. I don't want to walk away from conversations thinking, "Well, I'm not drunk and I think I made sense...but were my emotions actually on base there?" I'm also tired of worrying that I'll have a serious health issue again and then have to admit to everyone that yeah, I did start up again.
What worked for me? Reading and posting here, for one. I was on these forums constantly for the first...I'm not even sure how long. Quite a while. I read new posts and old posts, anything to keep my mind focused on needing to quit. When I did wander off for a couple months after the site change, I made a decision to come back. I wasn't having drinking thoughts (yet), but I felt like I was setting myself up by staying away.
Other than that, I tried to listen to advice, especially the kind I didn't want to hear. Getting all the AL out of the house. Not going places that would make me want to drink. I developed plans, and learned what to tell myself during a craving so I didn't give in.
I want to thank everyone here, so very much. I'm starting to have my LIFE back, here; that's a huge thing. And sorry this was short (well, short for ME lol); I really am tired. But NOT hungover.
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