I'm back! Anyone up for 30 days
Hello Everyone,
I am old member of MWO and didn't know where to post this because in a sense I am "STARTING OVER" again. I had one year of AF and well I am sure you guys know the story that follows afterwards. If you don't, well I'll tell you....it's the old well maybe I can have just one and the next thing you know it, you saying to yourself "okay, I drink but after that I will go AF". HA! It's been THREE years from the time I decided to just have that one drink and I have to say it's been HELL! Once again, the lies, the guilt, lost jobs, being stuck in bed all day physically sick from being hung over and the worse of all is the two week drinking binges where I start drinking in the morning.....YUCK! There is one good thing that came out of this last drinking binge and that was I recorded myself drinking and wow I am so glad I did. It was nice to see myself drinking because it was definitely an eye opener. I AM AN ALCOHOLIC! I will be watching this video every so often as a reminder and will also be seeking other avenues to really work on putting 100% into my sobriety this time, the last time I didn't which probably I drank. I have to admit that in the back of my mind I was thinking maybe one day I can have a drink. NO, I CAN'T and that's what I need to really, really come to terms and accept, otherwise I will either be homeless or worse DIE!
It wasn't all bad, I did manage to run 7 half marathons and the LA Marathon, however it was ALWAYS my excuse to drink afterwards because I did these events and when I drank...it was to get drunk! Anyway, I am here again to see if any of you wonderful MWO would like to join me in a AF day count and the usual it's best to start one day at a time. During those 3 years, I did manage to get 30 days AF but again would just go back to drinking and so as did when I had started my thread ANYONE UP OF 30 DAYS AF (if you get a chance read it) doing 30 days is a good start! Thanks for reading and I look forward to hearing from you. Oh and sorry for the typos
Janet
AF Day 4
I am old member of MWO and didn't know where to post this because in a sense I am "STARTING OVER" again. I had one year of AF and well I am sure you guys know the story that follows afterwards. If you don't, well I'll tell you....it's the old well maybe I can have just one and the next thing you know it, you saying to yourself "okay, I drink but after that I will go AF". HA! It's been THREE years from the time I decided to just have that one drink and I have to say it's been HELL! Once again, the lies, the guilt, lost jobs, being stuck in bed all day physically sick from being hung over and the worse of all is the two week drinking binges where I start drinking in the morning.....YUCK! There is one good thing that came out of this last drinking binge and that was I recorded myself drinking and wow I am so glad I did. It was nice to see myself drinking because it was definitely an eye opener. I AM AN ALCOHOLIC! I will be watching this video every so often as a reminder and will also be seeking other avenues to really work on putting 100% into my sobriety this time, the last time I didn't which probably I drank. I have to admit that in the back of my mind I was thinking maybe one day I can have a drink. NO, I CAN'T and that's what I need to really, really come to terms and accept, otherwise I will either be homeless or worse DIE!
It wasn't all bad, I did manage to run 7 half marathons and the LA Marathon, however it was ALWAYS my excuse to drink afterwards because I did these events and when I drank...it was to get drunk! Anyway, I am here again to see if any of you wonderful MWO would like to join me in a AF day count and the usual it's best to start one day at a time. During those 3 years, I did manage to get 30 days AF but again would just go back to drinking and so as did when I had started my thread ANYONE UP OF 30 DAYS AF (if you get a chance read it) doing 30 days is a good start! Thanks for reading and I look forward to hearing from you. Oh and sorry for the typos
Janet
AF Day 4
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