Hi, I am signing myself up for a sober month, I have been drinking almost every day for over 20 years (with the exception of a year when I was pregnant/breastfeeding) and I have had enough completely, utterly and totally, I am ruining my relationship with my husband and my health and mental state, I am crying typing this as I have no idea how I am going to do it, I feel compelled to drink as soon as it is evening, never drink in the day really unless I go out for lunch and every morning I vow I won't drink today and yet somehow find myself at the shop buying wine - usually two bottles and drink one and a half, I can go a couple of days without if I really try but I go to bed early those nights as I feel I am depriving myself - of what??? I wish I was one of those people who don't even think about alcohol, why is it so important to me? I am sorry for waffling on and congratulations if you have read all this, I just need to write it all down so I can try and make sense of it! I want to quit, today and forever, I can't do this any more!!!!!
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Welcome lavender! 30 days is a good goal. You can do it, one day at a time. Before you know it, you'll be wondering why you ever got into that stupid habit of drinking every night! -
Good for you lavender. You can do it. For me day one is always the hardest. Just take it one day at a time. Keep reading here and post.Comment
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Welcome aboard! Please check out the 2 links in my signature line. The Newbie's Nest is a wonderful place to get your sober legs, there are folks in ALL stages of quitting there. The Tool Box is a treasure trove of tips and information to get you the tools you need to succeed.
I flew in here 6 years ago with a story just like yours....I am now 5 years sober. If I can do it, I know you can, too! See you in the nest! ByrdieComment
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Lavender,
How familiar your post sounds to me and just about everyone on this site. I feel your pain and misery, but it doesn't have to stay that way. Please refer to the toolbox and write down ten things that you will use when you're feeling like you want to drink. The most important thing is to come on here and waffle away just as you did. Drink tons of water today, sleep as much as you can, and eat lots and lots. We will be here. Not going anywhere except to fly over to the nest. Hope to see you there.Sometimes what you're most afraid of doing is the very thing that will set you free.Comment
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Thank you for the welcome everyone, well I overcome my first hurdle - not buying wine before the school run and I haven't any in so that's that for today!! Feeling a little more positive too after meeting my hubby for lunch and ordering a rhubarb and soda drink instead of my usual large glass of white, it was really lovely too, much more thirst quenching!! Going to have a read through the tool box later and make a plan
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Welcome Lavender46! Your story sounds so similar to many people here. The wanting so desperately to stop every morning, and then the indulging every night. It is a vicious circle, but there is a way out. It is doable and you will NEVER regret puting distance between you and alcohol! Here's a (((hug))) for you. We've been in your shoes and understand.
Kensho
Done. Moving on to life.Comment
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Well, so far so good, I haven't had a drink all week! feeling really positive and so much better in myself, it is so nice to wake up unhungover every day!!Comment
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Wow, that is great lavender! Congratulations. I give the 7 day award over at the Newbie Nest so want to give your first 7 day award: :butt: A moon!
Join us over in the nest??
:llama:Last edited by Eloise; March 4, 2016, 12:31 PM.(AF since 17 May 2014) 2 years 5 months soberComment
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I am not a Doctor - I am an alcoholic.
Thoughts expressed here are my own, often poorly put together and littered with atrocious grammar and spelling.
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Well done!:goodjob:Comment
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