Havnt been on for a few days, have been working a lot, just a excuse had another fall, friday night finished work, girl at work asked if i wanted to go for a drink, told her i was on a detox, but thought i need to meet people or i will go insane, told myself one would not hurt, we had two then i got a bottle of red for when i got home( with the intention of only having a couple more, cds will kick in right) wrong bottle gone, got on phone babbled to my friends (that dont ring unless i ring them) thought what the hell i will ring them, then played my daughters guitar (which i can not play) and generally felt sorry for myself, dont get me wrong i did think of getting on here, then i conviced myself what a loser i was to spend my weekends talking to complete strangers who i probably can never meet, and scared that i was going to become a cat lady with 20 cats a computer and no life. How the bloody hell do you make friends and be social if you dont go out to pubs , clubs, even bloody dinner includes wine. Just read over this god no wonder no one wants to hang out with me. How bloody depressing, thank god i work in customer service so i can talk to people then, sorry i guess i expected a mircale when the tools arrived, but alas i have failed miserably, any tips, by the way have had a really sore throat and tong since going on supps is this normal or should i see the doc.
chill
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