Here I go again!

[madonmehndi]

I haven't posted on here in some time, I went on an all day bender yesterday with my hubby and have been feeling very very ill and sorry for myself today and I have decided it is time to quit once and for all, I cannot keep doing this to myself and I have just poured away a bottle of wine i bought this afternoon as a hair of the dog!! I have downloaded a hypnosis app and a sober tracker app and I am starting right now, in previous attempts I have given myself 'one last night' but not this time!!! I am so determined I am going to do this, I WANT to be sober and to have a better life!

[aihfl]

What's going to be different this time? What is your plan to deal with that irritating addictive voice? What is your backup plan? What is your backup to your backup? What thought stopping techniques do you plan to use? How are you going to occupy the time you used to spend drinking? Is your support network adequate? Are there any comorbid issues like anxiety that drove your drinking? Would you benefit from seeing a psychiatrist, psychotherapist or participate in recovery group counseling led by a mental health professional (notice I qualified that - by group counseling, I don't mean AA)?

Just some questions you might want to ask yourself. Making declarations are great, but they are only the very first step.

[madonmehndi]

What's going to be different this time? What is your plan to deal with that irritating addictive voice? What is your backup plan? What is your backup to your backup? What thought stopping techniques do you plan to use? How are you going to occupy the time you used to spend drinking? Is your support network adequate? Are there any comorbid issues like anxiety that drove your drinking? Would you benefit from seeing a psychiatrist, psychotherapist or participate in recovery group counseling led by a mental health professional (notice I qualified that - by group counseling, I don't mean AA)?

Just some questions you might want to ask yourself. Making declarations are great, but they are only the very first step.

Thanks for the reply, I read your thought stopping thread and like the idea of 'snapping' so planning to adopt that today, I am going to go and buy some books - Allen Carr one and Jason Vale as I have heard they are very good. Also going to buy some headphones for my phone so I can start the hypnosis app tonight. I have been to a couple of AA meetings in the past plus had some one to one counselling and I didn't find either of them helped me really but not ruling either out at the moment, need to look up help in my area. I don't have any other issues really just dependance on AL. I have a ton of hobbies I have neglected in favour of my nightly drinking - crochet, sewing, growing veg, mehndi (henna painting) on skin and objects and reading so I should have no excuse to revert if i can keep focused! I know that I am only on the first step and that I have been here many, many times before but I truly intend to quit and stay quit once and for all

[paulywogg]

You can do this! Distract,distract,distract,post here,pamper yourself, get good food and exercise and some days you just hafta hold on for dear life,glad you're here

[madonmehndi]

You can do this! Distract,distract,distract,post here,pamper yourself, get good food and exercise and some days you just hafta hold on for dear life,glad you're here

Thank you for the reply. I remember you I have been and bought a self-hypnosis style book today, it has a cd with it so planning to listen to that later and got some headphones so I can listen to my app too.

[20/20]

How did today go Madonmehndi? I am on day 4 today. Together we can do this!

[madonmehndi]

How did today go Madonmehndi? I am on day 4 today. Together we can do this!

Hi, it went ok thanks, on day 3 today- how about you? Feeling very tetchy and irritable today however, going to listen to my hypno app in a minute...

[20/20]

HI Madonme............

Where did you find the hypno app? The original info on MWO had a company they used for hypno - but the "store" is gone it appears.

Since day one I have found myself snapping at my husband and even the store clerk today. Then I smiled and thought ... This one is a pass. I will get over that stage of irritability. Right now - it's okay. Our brains are drying out and searching for the new normal. It takes the poor brain awhile to realize we mean business! Go easy on yourself. No self judgement! There are plenty of ppl in our lives that who will do that for us. And the best response is ... "What you think of me is none of my business!"

I've been taking bubble baths in the evenings. Cool water cuz it's too hot for heat!! When I get into bed - I say a quick affirmation to myself .... "Good job girl, no matter what else you did or didn't do today .... you didn't drink - and that's success like nothing else I could have done today". Then I thank God that I didn't drink!

Physically I feel like I'm coming off a flu. Bubbly tummy. Headache. General crud stuff. But I know each day will get better. It's summer, so that is an easy distraction for me. I can really get into a depressed mode in the winter. Also - I've been allowing myself a small snack at about 9 pm (like a brownie, popcorn, etc.) Not a huge amount - but a little treat. Its something I can look forward to.

Any changes in your daily routine helps. We need to create a new life! How fun! No more puffy face! Our appearance will improve! :love:

Check in before bed if you see this!

Cheering for you from "Clear View" :welldone:

[madonmehndi]

HI Madonme............

Where did you find the hypno app? The original info on MWO had a company they used for hypno - but the "store" is gone it appears.

Since day one I have found myself snapping at my husband and even the store clerk today. Then I smiled and thought ... This one is a pass. I will get over that stage of irritability. Right now - it's okay. Our brains are drying out and searching for the new normal. It takes the poor brain awhile to realize we mean business! Go easy on yourself. No self judgement! There are plenty of ppl in our lives that who will do that for us. And the best response is ... "What you think of me is none of my business!"

I've been taking bubble baths in the evenings. Cool water cuz it's too hot for heat!! When I get into bed - I say a quick affirmation to myself .... "Good job girl, no matter what else you did or didn't do today .... you didn't drink - and that's success like nothing else I could have done today". Then I thank God that I didn't drink!

Physically I feel like I'm coming off a flu. Bubbly tummy. Headache. General crud stuff. But I know each day will get better. It's summer, so that is an easy distraction for me. I can really get into a depressed mode in the winter. Also - I've been allowing myself a small snack at about 9 pm (like a brownie, popcorn, etc.) Not a huge amount - but a little treat. Its something I can look forward to.

Any changes in your daily routine helps. We need to create a new life! How fun! No more puffy face! Our appearance will improve! :love:

Check in before bed if you see this!

Cheering for you from "Clear View" :welldone:

Hi and thanks for the lovely uplifting message! Day 4 for me today and I am starting to feel a bit better, I too feel like I am getting over something (and I guess in a way I am!) got a gripy stomach, headache on and off and feel a bit shaky and weak, think I did too much in the garden yesterday too though so that hasn't helped - cleaned out the chicken coop and cut some grass plus my usual veg gardening and house jobs!!! Planning to go shopping in a bit and buy some 'treats' for myself for this weekend (no AL of course!) as I think that is going to be my first hurdle to overcome, I usually drink a fair old bit over the weekend!!! I am in the UK and it is pouring with rain today so when I get back I am going to get my ironing done and try and do a bit of sewing if I get time, I have tons of hobbies I have been neglecting over looking at the bottom of a wine glass!!

I have been in a really bad irritable mood all week and my hubby has mentioned how snappy I am too, he asked if it was because I wasn't having a drink and I lied and said no - dunno why really as he is always supportive!!!

Hope you are ok today

[madonmehndi]

My app is on my smart phone, got it from Play Store, its called Sober Time

[madonmehndi]

Day 4 today and feeling ever so slightly better than I did, so proud of myself that I have done 3 days and it feels so good to get up in a morning without feeling the sense of immense guilt!

I started on my hypno app yesterday, it takes about 30 minutes and is very relaxing, it is Quit Drinking by Andrew Johnson, I am hoping it will help me! Bit concerned as my hubby has decided to download and use a weight loss app which is great for him but means in the evenings and at weekends if I want to eat when I would have been drinking I willl feel like I am not being supportive of him might have to go and pig out in the spare room LOL

[Choices]

Thanks for this thread... Here I go again too. I am day 1. In the middle of horrible withdraw. I binge drank last night and I am ill. Been struggling physically pretty bad all day. I know I'll feel better, and better... Just want to focus on making it two weeks this time instead of 30 days and beyond. I know I can do two weeks easy enough... But I want to feel healthy first, and I am so tired of quitting and starting again, that I'm hoping shorter goals are going to be the trick. Also this time, I'm not going to beat myself up, it has kinda worked before as motivation, but obviously here I am SO thinking a new approach might be less brutal. So for now two week stints is going to be my approach.. Mainly because I know I can do it. It's when I'm feeling a lot better in two weeks where.., I'll be most vulnerable I believe... So will keep my chin up until then.

[paulywogg]

Great job on 4 days Madon for me that was a hard one for some reason,I had to laugh when you said you'll have to eat in the spare room,my hubs is on a fitness kick and while I am trying it with him,I still hide tacos in my purse once in awhile haha! Hi Choices

[20/20]

Laughing at the "closet eating"!! Whatever it takes is what I say! Way easier to lose weight than quit drinking!!! You can get through day 4 Madonme. Just keep thinking about how you have to post here before you go to bed and that got me through more than one day already!!! Day one - I about blew it by early afternoon. It was a SATURDAY - and after all ....... WHO QUITS DRINKING ON A SATURDAY!!! IT'S LIKE STARTING A DIET ON A HOLIDAY!! (sorry I'm shouting) I was about to go to the refridg and grab a beer ....... suddenly I realized I had posted my first post here on MWO. Honestly - I thought ... CRUD. And I didn't drink! Strange way to get through my first day Al Free!!

Choices ....... 2 weeks it is!!! Jump in. We can all do this together. Imagine a year from now .... each of us celebrating a 1 year anniversary together. YES!!

[Choices]

Hey everyone,

Day two thank heavens! I do feel a lot better.. but still feel yucky. Yes two weeks! Should be doable. Much more doable if I'm checking in. I've quit at a strange time myself... lots of things coming up, but no time like the present... I'm tired of feeling sick and tired. It has gotten really old... (again).