Screwed up royally

[paulywogg]

Good to see you Katie,I was worried about you but I'm just a worrier as it is,take care

[Panda]

Hi Pauly. I'm OK. Just had a few rough days n didn't want to be a bother. Went to the Dr yesterday and picked up my Rx today so I'm going to get back on track. What a difference it makes not feeling like ur crawling out of ur skin. As u probably know I was tapering off, so I know it'll only take a few more days of being on my Rx and listening to my cds . Also going to find healthy activities to positively occupy my time and negative thoughts. Thank you so much for thinking of me. I'll always be hereif you need anything as well. I'm really not a wacko

[Panda]

Thanks again Pauly. Maybe we can start a worry wart thread cause I'm right there with ya. Sorry about making you worry. Just crawl into my shell sometimes

[Panda]

Hi Eloise.sorry I've been off. A few really rough days but getting back on track. Thank you so much for caring. You and everyone else are making me feel like I really belong. My phone's about to die so I'll get in touch tomorrow. Have a great night!

[paulywogg]

You can do this Katie, you're not a wacko haha(not any more wacko than the rest of us anyways) maybe a worry thread would actually be a good idea,same as they say to write your worries down to get them out,I like that idea everyone can give input, something to think about, hope you have a good night

[Panda]

Hey cowboy sorry, had a few really bad days, but yes, went to my Dr and got my refills today so I'm getting back on track. I didn't talk about drinking because I just don't want to open a can of worms. It may sound lame, but i really dont wany to get into that at this timr, when i know that i can learn to be strong (hopefully with all of you) After my relapse I'm going to taper again n then be af . I don't drink to excess so it should be no problem dealing with my issues with my prescriptions and therapy. And I'll be seeing my therapist on Monday. I just knowthat I cant be off my meds at this time. Since that's when I self medicate. Please don't get my intentions wrong. I know I have an issue with al when I'm using it solely to relieve stress. I'm writing out a plan of activities I can and want to do when I feel anxious. I never take more of my meds than prescribed, so I intend to find an alternative method to take me out of the situation if I start feeling overwhelmed. Ya know my top stress reliever is when I'm around horses. It just disappears. Better than any drug . I'm looking for anyone who needs help around here, but not so much in FL in the summer;( I hopened you are doing well. It sounds like it, and I'm very happy for you. Have a great night, and I hope you don't think I'm too much of a nutcase lol. Night. Katie

[Panda]

So we're in business? And you r so righ . I pretty much guaranteethat 99% of us fall into the "what if" category. And I know that that kind of thinking is detrimental to all of us that have worry stress. It's never as bad as you think it'll be and most of the timenothing happens at al . I could write a freakin book!!!!

[Eloise]

Glad to see your post Panda. And it is great you can see someone to talk things out.
Wishing you a peaceful Sunday.

[abcowboy]

Great to see you back Katie! I don't think you should stop taking your meds, if your Dr's prescribe them, they do for a reason, I was just concerned about the alcohol/med combination and don't want to see anything harmful happen to you!

[Eloise]

You know I can remember being in about the same state of mind as you are now Katie.
It took a lot of starts and stops for me to finally get it right. But, I did get it right. What is important is you do not give up, keep fighting for yourself, for your sanity.
It is worth it.