You Did Not Drink

[Nursie]

Dear Self,
Take a breath...you are safe, you did not drink.
You are safe in your bed. Your clothes are on, your car is in the driveway.
Look over at your husband, he is not mad. You don't need to wonder how bad you were.
Look in your son's room. He is sleeping angelically.
You can remember everything because You did not drink.
You did not cause a scene that You cannot remember.
Dear self, you did not drink.
There is no mess to clean up, no apologies to make.
The house is as you left it, no messes, no guesses...
There is no reason to check your phone
Dear Self, you did not drink.
There are no empties to hide. No bar tabs to pay.
You did not lose your purse or your dignity.
You did not" do it again".
Dear Self, you did not drink.
Your head is not smashing, the thirst is not there.
There are no bumps or bruises.
There are no flashes of memory crashing into you
Churning your guts and your soul
There is nothing to regret last night
Dear Self, you did not drink.
There is no cringing and crying.
No explanations to make.
There is no self loathing today
Dear Self, you did not drink.

[wagmor]

Love this Nursie - thank you so much for sharing :heartbeat:

[Lost Soul]

Nursie, so much of your post resonates with me, thank you for sharing :heartbeat: