Thanks you guys - I am once again back to day one today....won't bore y'all with the details but I stupidly went to the PGA golf tournament up in LA yesterday, an annual event which I have associated with drinking for many YEARS now. I KNEW I should have just NOT gone this year because of my recent "falling off of the wagon" situation but seeing those amazing golfers up close and personal was just too much of an enticement (and I'd already bought the ticket months ago and it wasn't cheap...). If this event would have been before I blew it last week, I probably would have been much stronger but yesterday, after awhile I just said "what the hell - I'm only on day seven, I'll just start over again tomorrow". WTH kind of thinking is THAT?!? So......back to square one / day one today. And, I have another SHIT situation going on in my world - as of last night, my brother and his wife have now moved in with me as they were homeless and she is sick. So....I just start trying to get back to normal after moving my mom into a home, and now have THEM living with me. And while my sister in law is sweet as pie, she drives me CRAZY because she never shuts up. So.....I'm going into this weekend with nothing but utter DREAD, not even wanting to be in my own home because they will be there, 24/7, in my living room, tv blaring, etc, etc. I swear I'm not normally a whiner, at ALL but the last 4 months have really been CRAP! Anyway, no excuses - having them irritate the CRAP out of me isn't a reason to drink so I will just have to be strong and get through it somehow.
Please don't count me out yet people! I really DO want to quit drinking. Truly! And I know I can do it I just need to get my head back in the right place. Plus, I can't help them find a place to live if I'm half crocked... HA!
Ok little sober car, here I come again...
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