AL has been an escape, a coping mechanism. And the situations that it's been used to cope in may seem trivial to some. But nevertheless AL has been an escape for too long.
There's a lot to be excited about; but also facing the future sober is a scary thought; to deal with real emotions and not blunt them. I'm expecting a lot of turbulence in the near future. And that's the point; the longer we self medicate the harder it becomes to deal with these demons alone. Some people will come along for the ride. Others will drop off.
A lot of compassion is going to be needed; to accept my faults, mistakes and problems. We are all human; we all have our demons. But hiding them away only makes the demons more powerful.
It's time to grow up. Be an adult. Face the World.
- I don't know who I really am
- I haven't really connected with anyone for a long time; it's like being Jekyll & Hyde. Putting on a persona, being weak and trying to go along with everything.
- I've been in my bubble for too long; living a selfish way.
- I've isolated myself for too long
- Stepping into a sober life is scary; past demons, current environments and being vulnerable are all scary
There's a lot to be excited about; but also facing the future sober is a scary thought; to deal with real emotions and not blunt them. I'm expecting a lot of turbulence in the near future. And that's the point; the longer we self medicate the harder it becomes to deal with these demons alone. Some people will come along for the ride. Others will drop off.
A lot of compassion is going to be needed; to accept my faults, mistakes and problems. We are all human; we all have our demons. But hiding them away only makes the demons more powerful.
It's time to grow up. Be an adult. Face the World.
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