10 weeks today

[Struggles 106]

Hi all

Ten weeks today. All is well. I am keeping my granddaughter overnight so my daughter could
get away for a bit. We are watching our 50 th episode of Elmo's World.

I'm ready to move into "sober phase 2"--meaning exercise and healthy eating . Time to find out who I really am
without the cover of intoxication. I have to say I have no desire to drink. At all. I guess that right now the terrifying
"Bottom" episode is a strong motivator. I cringe every I drive by the brewery nearby where the epic fail partially occurred.
I might be thrown out if I was dumb enough to go in there.
No way , not allowing myself to goalkeepers to insanity

I hope everyone is well

Ann

[Struggles 106]

Re: 10 weeks today

I meant not allowing myself to go back to insanity--lol

[paulywogg]

Re: 10 weeks today

Excellent job on 10 weeks Ann

[Guitarista]

Re: 10 weeks today

Top job Ann!

I can't exactly recall, but are you also on antabuse? i am, and it's working nicely in the background.

Have a beautiful weekend.

[NoraC]

Re: 10 weeks today

Hi all

Ten weeks today. All is well. I am keeping my granddaughter overnight so my daughter could
get away for a bit. We are watching our 50 th episode of Elmo's World.

I'm ready to move into "sober phase 2"--meaning exercise and healthy eating . Time to find out who I really am
without the cover of intoxication. I have to say I have no desire to drink. At all. I guess that right now the terrifying
"Bottom" episode is a strong motivator. I cringe every I drive by the brewery nearby where the epic fail partially occurred.
I might be thrown out if I was dumb enough to go in there.
No way , not allowing myself to goalkeepers to insanity

I hope everyone is well

Ann

Ann :hug: Congratulations. Great job on 10 weeks!
This might sound weird but I think it's really good that you still cringe when you drive by. I encourage you to stick that "bottom" episode in a file in your brain. Neatly filed away - not needed or thought about - but as soon as alcohol looks in the least bit appealing or you even feel a hint of a wishful thought, Open that file and look at that 'bottom' episode from the beginning to the end. It stopped me from drinking many times.
I really do think of it in that manner. It's a visual image in my brain of a closed file folder. Whenever things get a little to wobbly in my world, I open that file folder and play my bottoms. I really look at it as it was, no sugarcoating the episode. I NEVER want to feel that self hatred, guilt, disgusted feeling again. But, I play it in my head without being upset at myself - but just realistically seeing the truth of alcohol in my life. Then, I am happy I don't drink and that file is put away until it's needed again. It is very rarely pulled out anymore but it will always be there. :hug:

[ssd858]

Re: 10 weeks today

You must be so proud of yourself:yay:

[Struggles 106]

Re: 10 weeks today

Hey Gman

I am on AB, and I take 1/2 every Sunday (125 mg). This works for me.
It also means an extra deterrent, a conscious effort to NOT take it. Which is the not so sneaky way to lay the groundwork
for disaster.

Good luck to you amigo

Ann

[Byrdlady]

Re: 10 weeks today

Great job, Ann! Keep up thevgreat work, we are so proud and happy for you! :thumbsup:Byrdie

[NoSugar]

Re: 10 weeks today

Sounds like your thinking about drinking has totally changed, Ann. You don't seem at all to feeling sorry that you can't - just relieved that you don't want to. It's wonderful to no longer feel compelled, isn't it? I'm really happy for you. xx, NS

[Struggles 106]

Re: 10 weeks today

Thanks you guys
And NS you are right! I have no desire to go back to being that person.
And when I drive my that brewery and see people sitting outside I can only imagine what I must have looked like-pulling in to the parking lot
and going in and ordering a beer! I barely recall what went on there. Just a sad drunken fool...

NOT happening. There is nothing to deal with in this life that will make me go back .

Peace and love --

Ann

[lifechange]

Re: 10 weeks today

Well done, Ann!
Congratulations to you on 10 weeks AF!

[Mick]

Re: 10 weeks today

well done Ann...it sounds like your no drinking ethos has hit a biggy..to turn cant into dont want is the biggest step you can get ...it is probably the biggest change you will make..build on that thinking...and you wont go wrong ..well done..