16 weeks or 4 months or 112 days

[Struggles 106]

Call it whatever, I call it sober.
Next up- return to exercise and being the best I can be.
Certainly feels like the idea of being drunk is abhorrent at best.
Note that I didn't say the idea of "drinking" because that is not at all what it would be.
It would be drunken madness, the likes of which I cannot go through ever again.

My daughter has been quite trying lately, and taking care of my granddaughter is very difficult, partially due to her limitations. I cannot dwell on her quality of life in terms of what she will and will not be able to do as she grows up.
Too much to handle so that is day to day too, just loving her and trying to help her.

*sigh*
Some days are very hard. Like yesterday. But drinking to "help", or relieve the stress, or numb the feelings of all of this is SO
not an option. Not even close. I am really glad that awful day happened 4 months ago since apparently that was the turning point. My daily route takes me by the brewery I've mentioned that was a part of that terrible day and I visibly shake with revulsion. Yay for the rick bottom- nowhere to go but up

Peac and love

Ann

[Pavati]

Re: 16 weeks or 4 months or 112 days

Way to go, Ann!

Yes, life IS hard sometimes.

Congratulations on finding your way out - and congratulations on the four month milestone. That is when I started feeling "flat." The great feeling I had from leaving that awful drinking life behind was gone, and I started settling in to "is this it?" mode. Keep checking in with us, and use us if you need. You're sounding strong and resolved.

xo
Pav

[Byrdlady]

Re: 16 weeks or 4 months or 112 days

Great job on 16 weeks, Ann. Like Pav said, life isnt always easy, but it is always better without AL. Sounds like you are a lot like me, there was just no living with AL.
Im sorry you have such a full plate of responsibilities. All I can say is that your daughter and granddaughter are so lucky to have you in their lives. You matter.
Im with you on needing to get some exercise, I MUST get moving. Hugs dear lady. Much love, Byrdie

[Struggles 106]

Re: 16 weeks or 4 months or 112 days

Thanks you guys-
I was just reading about a dentist in PA who was trying to work on patients drunk. His staff called 911-
Hope he gets help.

Waiting for rain here. All is well.

Ann

[Neo]

Re: 16 weeks or 4 months or 112 days

Well done Ann. In 3 months I went from crap to having the health to get into the police force all on only 2 x 1hrs exercise per week . Here's an interesting vid .Being winter too here ,I haven't done much over the last few months ,in fact pretty lazy and time to kick this stuff back in

Catalyst: Fit in 6 Minutes a week - ABC TV Science

and throw in a good diet with vits and good to go

Catalyst - Special Edition - Low Carb Diet: Fat or Fiction