I remember 4 years ago

[Rahulthesweet]

I remember
The days
And the nights
Days full of guilt
Nights with dry throat

I remember the struggle
To pass days
And evenings
Thinking about the next one
Trying to stop
With no sucess

I remember
The bottom
In that hotel room
When I woke up
3 am with dry throat
Surrounded by empty bottles
And empty soul body
Broken spirit
And no hope

I remeber
the endless cycle
Dry mornings
Wild evenings
Crazy hangovers

I remember
my first logun to my way out
What started it all
Path towards sobriety
Realization
Hope

I remember
Endless reading
You tube videos
Blogs
To learn and un learn
Alcohol is bad
Its a waste
Its a sham

I remember
the books I read
People I met
Folks I chatted with
all the advice
The tool box

I remeber
my first sober day
Week
Month
Year
Counting days

I remeber
Las vegas
My first relapse
First of many
How I came down stong
Fell flat
Weak
Helpless

I remember
When i lovely PMs on MWO
advices to hand on
Go another day
Just more day

I remember
Rebooting my life
New interests
My love with cyclings
Running ...

I remember
The treats
The pat on backs
Feeling of accomplishments
Ice creams
And coffees
How they tasted so good
And still do ...

I remember
How I lost friends
And made new ones
Most importantly
I found I have a family
Kids ...
Who care
And love

I remember
Last 4 years
Of complete abstinence
Of freedom
Of mental peace
Of such joy
Of feelings again

I remember
Today ... 4 years ago
.............

[Guitarista]

Re: I remember 4 years ago

Happy 4 years Rahul! Congratulations mate. Great post.

[Byrdlady]

Re: I remember 4 years ago

Wow, I could cry. I am SO proud of you and what a lovely and reflective post. I wish you woukd put that in the Tool Box for someone who may be trying to find the hope and comfort you found there.
Well done, dear friend. Congratulations on this major milestone. Here’s to many more!!
:welldone: Byrdie

[available]

Re: I remember 4 years ago

Happy 4 years Rahul, it only gets better as time goes on. have a lovely day.

[NoSugar]

Re: I remember 4 years ago

What a beautiful poem, Rahul. You capture how it really feels to be free. Congratulations on 4 years, NS

[wagmor]

Re: I remember 4 years ago

Really beautiful Rahul - both the poem AND the person you've discovered in your sober self. Congrats on every single day/week/month of those 4 years!

[Rahulthesweet]

Re: I remember 4 years ago

Thanks everyone for wishes. I am very proud of this and I intend to love rest of my life Counting happy days ... Sober. I wrote this post in a pub surrounded by friends who were all drinking and hopping and dacing. While feeling out of place absolutely no interest for AL. Why consume artificials stimulants when you can enjoy (or dislike) the music.

[lifechange]

Re: I remember 4 years ago

Congratulations Rahul on 4 years of freedom.. beautiful poem, you inspire us.

[Mr Vervill]

Re: I remember 4 years ago

Huge congrats on 4 years Rahul! You are an inspiration!

[lex]

Re: I remember 4 years ago

Congrats on 4 years Rahul- how sweet it is to be booze-free!! :thumbsup:

[ThirdTimesACharm]

Re: I remember 4 years ago

What a beautiful and heartfelt poem. A poem that could have only been written by someone who has accepted the challenge of life, won the battle and emerged a new, stronger person.

Brought more than a little tear to my eye.

So very happy for you.

ThirdTimesACharm