Newbies in Need- day 23

[rottrod]

Newbies in Need- day 23

You are doing great lilaclover, I really do have a life but right now I really need this place, it's a life line for me. Have a good saturday evening.

Melissa

[nancy]

Newbies in Need- day 23

chat

have any of you tried chat?

I haven't. Just wondering if it might be nice for real-time conversation and at times when people are having urges.

[Kitty]

Newbies in Need- day 23

Dear all,

Just saying night night as it's nearly 1.00am here.

I think there are quite a few people from the UK and France that use this thread so I suppose the time zones do affect us. We should all try and read the day's before thread then hopefully will can get a kind of seamless link going. I don't know, worth a try.

My head's a bit of a mess because I just watched Deja Vu on DVD. I won't tell you anything just in case you haven't seen it but rent it if you can.


Well got through the day still af and cig free, it's a miracle! Had a fleeting thought just now that I don't want to think about never being able to drink again. I'm not going to say never, just not for now.

Starlight well done tonight, and welcome to newbies Lilac. Rotrod this place is a life line to me too, it's driving my bf barmy (he's convinced I'm chatting to men!) He's ok though only teasing, he'd much rather me be on here than steaming drunk.

Hope you've all had/having a great day, and see you all tomorrow.

Kitty

[NYCGirl]

Newbies in Need- day 23

hey all,

I know lots of folks are already off to bed, but just thought I'd post since I'm feeling kinda down tonight. I'm in a mood where I wish I could have a drink right now, but I also have a horrible headache and don't really have anything in the house to drink and there really isn't anywhere to buy anything around here except for this one scary liquor store that I refuse to go into (too many junkies and homeless people, and lots of bullet proof glass). Even I've never been that desperate! Just feeling sorta lonely tonight. My one close friend who I talk to about my drinking is away this weekend and not returning my texts, but of course, all my drinking buddies have been on my tail trying to get me to come out and making me feel guilty that I haven't been out with them.

It's really weird how pulling myself out of that world for a little bit and standing back and seeing it from the outside looking in has really changed my perspective on it. I see how dysfunctional some of my friends are and how toxic they can be. On Friday I responded to an email to our group of friends saying I wouldn't be meeting up with them this weekend because I was feeling sick (which is actually conveniently true, I haven't felt great since last weekend). I didn't get back one 'hope you feel better'. But I got one 'guiness cures everything' and another 'you just need a shot of tequila'. Some friends. It really annoyed me. Now I'm starting to wonder if the friends I have really are friends at all, or if somehow we were all just bonding through our shared issues with alcohol.

So I'm just feeling lonely tonight and depressed. It's strange, I kinda want to drink, but at the same time I don't. I want to drink out of habit - it's just what I do when I feel bored and down. But I know I will only feel worse later and tomorrow if I do. And I just don't want to feel worse right now. I kinda just wish I could fall asleep and wake up tomorrow morning and start a new day fresh. I always feel better in the mornings. Anyways, just wanted to ramble. Thanks for listening.

NYCGirl

[Kitty]

Newbies in Need- day 23

Hi NYCgirl,

Try and be patient with your friends, they probably don't understand. I'm sure they wouldn't be so heartless as to send you those kind of texts if they knew you were struggling.

I can identify with the habitual side to drinking, there are some late night progs on the TV that can actually trigger a craving for me. Stupid stuff like waching late night poker or strange rubbish that I would only watch when smashed.

I guess we have to just find other things to do, I come here alot which has helped me.

Good luck anyway, I am definately going to bed this time!!

Kitty

[lilaclover]

Newbies in Need- day 23

Hi NYCGirl, I am new here so probably don't have much good advice to offer but it sounds to me like you are making great progress by seeing things from such a different perspective in such a short time. I am sure your friends will still be there for you when they understand that some of your priorities may have shifted a bit. Try to keep busy a bit tonight...read a book or magazine or something. Keep in touch. P.S. I don't get these time things..we should be in the same time zone.

[rottrod]

Newbies in Need- day 23

NYCgirl if you are still up just know those things happen to all of us and those melancholy feelings will go away after a time. You can always try chat and see if anyone is there.

Nancy do try the chat. sometimes if a lot of folks are in there it seems kind of crazy but you get used to the rhythm of it and then it flows nicely.

Lila hello I'm bouncing around trying to clean house tonight as I just found out I'm going to have friends coming to visit at the end of the week. Hopefully this will keep me occupied a good part of the week while hubby is away on business.

You sound like you are doing OK.

Melissa

[NYCGirl]

Newbies in Need- day 23

Thanks everyone! I'm feeling much better now. I watched some tv and talked with my roommate. Now getting ready for bed and going to read for a bit. I just wish this headache would go away! I've had one the past two nights, hopefully it's not the supplements, or maybe I'm just adjusting to them. Or it's all the crap I've put in my brain washing out of it or something! Hopefully it will be gone by morning. Thanks for the support though. Hope everyone is having a good night.